Hello Everyone, how are you all. Many of you know me but for new folks or to those who dont know me , My name is Mr.Karizmatic ( RL : Abdul Mufeed ) . i am from INDIA ( Hyderabad) yeah yeah our biryani is famous. Well i was meaning to write a blog from soo soo long time , finally after my master plato started the trend ,i thought i shall share some of my life situation and stuff.
First of all BIG thanks to all the people who supported me in everything and helped me become staff.
After becoming staff, i know alot of you havnt seen much of me, that is because i was super busy with my RL job, i am a Mechanical Engineer . I have moved forward in a field called HVAC ( heating ventilation and Air Conditioning ) it is a branch of mechanical engineering. I started my job in september of 2017 and it was going great, i was doing small projects where i have to design , Calculate how much Cool air a room needs , by looking into each criteria . we calculate how much heat a room is getting from outside and inside and then we design to eradicate that heat and keep the temperature at a Human comfort level. and than we shall decide what duct size we need to move the airflow from one place to another at what velocity and at what friction level . etc... And many more things are there, i wont bore u guys.
So basically 2 months back we got 2 big projects , and the client is one of the biggest clients in INDIA . So we got 2 projects from them 1 is in Bangalore( Ground to 5th floor) and other is in Delhi(Ground to 6 floors). We started working on both projects simultaneously. We have to do heatload calculations,duct designing,duct routing,diffuser placement,All mechanical equipment placements etc etc. So i was working from past 45 days for almost 12-15 hours everyday, sometimes i worked for 30hrs too. I am not complaining cause i was learning soo much . That is the reason i wasnt available much on forums or servers, and i was lacking in INS and DOI work too, but finally 1 project banglore project is almost done we have designed and Revit modelling is also over. Delhi project is also going on. Finally i am starting to have more free time and i can come home in actual office hours. This was the reason i wasnt much active and wasnt been around lately. But i am back and shall be working more as a STAFF with my responsiblities and everything. I am still learning.
Now for DOI and INS , this is one of the closest things to me , i have been working on this both games from past 7-8 months i think or more. And i think ( i maybe wrong or 100% right ) alot of them thinks that i alone call the shots and dont listen to anyone or doesnt care about feedback etc. This is 100% wrong. There are leaders above me whom i discuss and ask there permissions, And Including DD. I never took any decision on my own, So plz plz dont think that they gave me the access and now i am behaving like a god that i have all the access of both games and i am not listening, DD and leaders can take the access from me easily with in a second. I have never broken there trust and i never will. ANd to all the DOI and INS or any memeber or regular in this clan plz plz if u have anything to say to me plz let me know, i know i have done alot of mistakes , i m not perfect , but i m ready to learn from my mistakes and not repeat them. i am not sooo good at communication and my english isnt that good so alot of time i come out as a rude person. But i am trying on that and working on it. Hope those who dislike me or thought some bad stuff we can start over again and work together.
I am always always open for suggestion and everything. My PM or Discord is always open , even on steam too. IF u want to help plz plz come forward, i always need helping hands, don't wait for me to ask, cause i dont know who can do what and who don't. But if you know stuff and wants to help doesn't matter if it is small or big , just let me know or post on forums, together we can make INS and DOI an awesome #1 servers and by that F|A will be on TOP always. We all are F|Amily . Again i want to apologies if i ever disrespected u guys or anything.
Lets work together and make this clan a better place and to keep this clan alive for many many years to come.
Fear of Failure
Failure, something many fear. Weather it be in the weight room, at work, college, anything. This is what it has come to in 2018, you give something a try, fail and just say "I can't do it"? Is that supposed to be some excuse? You don't simply walk away from the challenges you are faced with in life, you plant your feet into the ground and keep moving forward. For example, we did Power Clean Max lift in weight room yesterday. One small skinny kid that had joined our group decided he wanted to just do 95 freakin' pounds for all the sets, let his low standards get the best of him. I said "Hell no", threw on more weight and told him to get his ass back up to the bar. More or less, he hit a new max weight. Not that it was much weight or anything, but he still did it. He was afraid of failing, so he took the easy way out. Meanwhile, me and my friend who were already 20 pounds into a new max lift, kept adding weight until we failed more than 3 times. I was reppin', seeing everyone almost snapping their wrists around me, it did not phase me at all. I was in a zone, a place where I simply don't give a damn. I was not phased when I sat in the face of failure, repping more weight than I ever had before. I was focused on the task at hand, and was ready for what I was facing. Hell, when I added more and more weight on that bar, I felt like I could do anything.
So, are you going to let life lay you flat on your ass, or will you get up and finish strong?
Something many people can't do these days. Lock in, settle on their goals for the future. You see, people let the smallest distractions keep them from reaching their all time best in the classroom, weight room, or on the football field. Thinking about what others think of you, worrying about what is to come in the future, just focus for once. Keep the negatives out of your head, and grind. Trust me, it reflects on Friday nights when you go out on that football field and represent your town. Are you going to forget a call last moment, 5 yards away from the end zone? That's on you. Going to parties on the weekend, doing drugs and alcohol, when you should be studying? Is that truly how you want to live your life? Be a screw up now, and pay for it later? Excel on the football field, but can't get into a college because your GPA is total crap? Does not sound fun now, does it?
Lock in, focus up. Your future depends on it.
Strength, Weakness, Dedication.
Three simple words that define a human being, both mentally and internally. Why? It's what you've got deep down inside that shows.
Everyday is another chance to climb to success. The question is, how will you get there? I'll tell you one thing, you sure as hell won't do it by sleeping in or lowering your standards. Take it in an aspect of, "If I don't drag my ass out of bed, someone's gonna take my spot". That spot can be anything from football, work, or just life in a general aspect. The thing is, you have to differentiate someone taking your spot, as to taking someone else's. Every rep, every minute, every chance matters, so take it like it truly counts. Don't wuss out just because you are afraid of something, get the job done or else you never will. There comes a later time in life for work ethic, but you need to build it now. It is called Preparation. Here at my high school, we practice four times a week for football (not including weight room sessions), just to play one game. Sounds crazy right? Thursday or Friday night lights is where Preparation reflects on who you are as a team, your accountability for one another. Preparation is only the first phase, you have a million other things to focus on. Are you going to let yourself skip a rep, or give up, just because you are tired? Hell no. I had to tell a friend in the weight room to get his stuff together after he was acting like a total drama queen because we had to do another whole set of lifts, saying he could not do it. Did he end up finishing strong? Damn right. Would he have held himself to high standards if I was not there? Probably not. Tying back to what was said in the beginning, every rep matters. I SMILE when we have another set to do, because it is another opportunity to get better, have another stream of sweat run down your face. You see yourself winning, but others do not want to see you winning. For example, I've got a friend who tries to bring me down, because he knows I am coming to take his spot. I am working harder, more, and better than him. USE those people as motivation, keep pushing no matter what. Don't show weakness, that only makes you look worse. Don't let the coaches see you struggle on a rep, get that bar up so fast that it looks like lightweight, show some strength for once. Dedication plays a role in everything in your life. I AM dedicated as a football player, to my team, to myself, and to my academic's. I am a straight A's student because I come to school with the dedication for my life in the future and getting into a good college. I don't really want to get up at 6:30 every morning to lift with the JV and Varsity players, considering it is not mandatory for us freshman. I do it for the team, myself, and my future. What are you going to do?
I work my ass off everyday in that weight room, it is grind season, so get after it.
It's been a long time and I haven't shared any new updates since a while. Sometimes, I feel it's just 2008 and we just started our community but when I see the calendar, it's 2018. When we started while back it was just me, Rainier, Joe, FEM, yoyo and medic. Rest others followed over the period of time. Medic was the one who pursued me big time, to add COD4 servers when COD4 was at peak. Then we become super popular in COD4 in top 5 and over the period of time, server activity declined. My this year goal is to make COD4 popular again slowly with new server settings and bring some oldies back for fun. I still can't believe Anique, you are still around. Even V!per came back from FAG days.
I still can't believe almost 10 years have passed by. 10 years is a long time. I was single, working, running community during free time and enjoying my free life. It used to be really fun time and it still is. But let's be honest, oldies are like your first love in life. You never forget them no matter what. I just wish Rainier, Joe, Medic and others would get active again. I kinda miss them sometimes. I am glad yoyo is still around and kicking, irrespective to our personal differences while back. But hey it's all history and I look forward each day towards rising sun!
I never for even once thought I will get to see 2018 with =F|A=. I had some rough time in my life during 2010-2013 and lot's of people helped me out. It would really hurt when I have to say, sorry guys, we are closing our community because of less donations, less peeps, less server activity. I get it, whatever comes in existence has to expire. But then every year, I say to myself, God no not this year, one year more. I would hate to see not talking to all of you.
We will be soon looking to promote some of our new members to help out oldies like me and fill in the shoes so that they can continue legacy of =F|A=. Does that mean, I am going inactive? No not at all. I will be around and kicking. In fact, I have started advertising about our website on COC, COR, COD4, ET, Insurgency and DOI forums to get more new players to our community. This community has given me so much, that I can't forget.
For once, I wish, I can go on lunch with all the members but alas, we humans are dreamers and that's what keep us alive. We are nothing but emotional animals, looking for some love from our friends and family. In this case =F|A= has been my first baby, friends and family!
I for one, thank you to all of you for being so nice to me over all the years. From members to staff, I am lucky enough to find friends who came out for rescue when I needed the help most.
I will see you all tomorrow. Have a nice weekend ladies & gentleman!
An international gaming clan... What's that? Instead of with friends, you play with virtual strangers with whom you can't communicate? No no no no no. Instead of friends you already have, you play with people you have not yet met. Those guys are flesh and blood just like you and when you wanna meet them, guess what? You can!
In this blog entry I'll tell you the story of how this gaming clan made me meet with total strangers, delivered me a bright yellow "F|A Clan Co-Leader" T-shirt and made me invite a guy in my home who used to kill me several times a day on the server.
First there's Hamburg. How do you set up a real life meeting? It's simple. You make a topic on the forums, make a poll about the meeting place and date, someone books a hotel and... You meet there.
Or do you now? Our good friend Raziel was the one booking the hotel, you see. And this nice mister had disappeared from our good earth. So we ended up looking for a new hotel for Destiny and Guardian and I ended up at the strangest camping site I have ever encountered (there was no grass for the tents, but stones).
Once we all found a place to sleep, Kowalski was ready to show us the city of Hamburg. We ate some weird fish burgers at the port, took some pictures for the rest of the clan and ate ice cream, bathing in the sun. It was all really fun. My only complaint was that DJ, Destiny, Kowalski nor Guardian were pretty girls but eh... You can't have everything! DJ bought us cookies and this is also where DJ told me I was promoted to co-leader! Quite strange hearing about clan stuff from a real life DJ :p. As if that ain't enough for the strangeness, I received a yellow "F|A Clan Co-Leader" T-shirt in my letterbox a few days later. How often do you get those from your other friends, huh?!
At night we went for drinks. We took some extra beers to the port and stayed there talking until 4 am. What do gamers talk about? Yeah, sure. Games. Clan gossip. But also politics (it's allowed on those meetings!), life, girls,... The advantage about having no girls in the company is... You can talk about them.
When Guardian and Destiny went home I stayed a little longer to visit the Schanzenviertel with Kowalski. It's a really cool "slum" (see picture). Last year I returned him the favor and showed him Ghent. I have a feeling we may meet again.
Eh, I can't tell you everything in one blog entry so you'll have to hear about the other international encounter in the next part
The following are places that I have visited around this wonderful world. The reviews are purely from personal experience. In no particular order:
This country is beautiful inside and out. And not everyone is blond. There’s a working class side and there’s a swanky side. You can easily find the up-town feel in Stockholm. People dress it, talk it, walk it. The architecture is amazing with the cobble stones and yellow buildings. There are some awesome museums there and the boat ride is a must in the summer otherwise prepare to freeze. There are charming hotels located everywhere and things are walking distance, but transportation is fairly easy to navigate. Many Swedes tend to keep to themselves and their social circles most of the time. I notice this a lot in airports-you know it’s the right gate when no one is talking, but everyone is staring. The younger generations are more “outgoing”. Tourists are very much welcome in most parts of this Scandinavian country. Knowing the language can help when visiting smaller towns (obvi). The food is delicious, fresh, and healthy. There’s this fast food chain Sibylla that I drool for though. IKEA is IKEA. There’s this thing called “fika”! It’s like a coffee hour, where you relax and chat over some pastries and coffee. Happens everyday. Prepare to get fat. I think they love the color white because most homes I’ve seen have white everything. My favorite outer design is the Falu Red style. Financially, you’ll want to save up a great deal if you plan on visiting here. Language wise, english is widely spoken so you are in luck. I have seen the northern lights when I was young. I want to visit northern Sweden sometime and attend a reindeer race.
Crossing the Swedish/Norway border was fun. It all looks the same- green forests and beautiful people. Until you get to the coast. Fjords will blow your mind. A picture doesn’t suffice. I remember taking a car boat across a body of water. Never done that before. There are cute tourist friendly towns throughout parts of Norway. If you like seafood, this is a wonderful place to be. Financially, you’ll want to save up more than what you did for Sweden.
Depending on how you plan your visit, you can really get in a lot of culture in less than a month. We all know the flight tickets are the expensive part. Once you get here everything is affordable. I’m not a pro on how to travel here as a tourist because I went as part of a group where I paid an amount for the trip and the itinerary was scheduled. There is an airline that flies you around Southeast Asia for very cheap though and I forget the name. The rural villages I saw were life changing. Riding elephants near Chang Mai was amazing. The shopping here is fun and wallet friendly. You’ve most definitely heard about this country’s diverse selection of food. If not, you’re in for a piece of heaven when you visit. The people here are friendly and always smiling. Thailand isn’t called “the land of smiles” for nothing. Bangkok is quite the specimen. Aside from the smell, there is some beauty to see like the temples. You’ll find temples all over Thailand! Buddhism is very much prevalent here and like they say, it’s not a religion, it’s a lifestyle. I’ve heard Phuket is a place to visit. Never been. Also heard it’s fairly dirty. Can’t forget about the islands! There are many. The one I went to had resorts all along the beach as well as restaurants and bars. You’ll be sure to get whatever you need outta your system visiting Thailand.
I may be a little biased, but California is the best state around. You’ll notice that it’s pretty diverse all around. All you need to do is follow the US 101 and you’ll see all the good stuff. Unless you want to see Yosemite and other inland places. San Diego has got a good vibe, LA has night life, and concerts. Santa Monica has an eventful pier. So does Santa Barbara which also has good shopping and farmers markets. San Luis Obispo has a cool college town. Obviously you have to see San Francisco, the city by the bay. Don’t forget to hit up the beaches as you visit. Venice, Carpinteria, and Santa Barbara are some good ones. Good food is found everywhere. Coastal towns will often have tasty seafood. Try the lam chowder in SF. I have yet to visit sea glass beach in northern Cali.
New York is also a big state. I spent 2 days in New York City and that was not enough. There is a lot to see here. Went to an art museum and saw The Thinker and some of my man Van Gogh (Starry Night is at the other museum). Walked the Brooklyn Bridge. Went to the top floor of the Empire State Building. The transportation is good as long as you’re paying attention. It was freezing and windy when I was here, but the sun was out so it wasn’t all that bad. Gotta visit the Statue of Liberty and Ground Zero memorial next time I’m here. The other part of NY I’ve seen is upstate. The Niagara Falls are a must see. Beware, make sure you have your passport so you can visit the Canadian side, it’s prettier.
I’ve spent some time in Seattle. Hip and busy city. There are some good outdoor things to do like a walk through a modern art gallery and shop the market. Don’t forget to visit the first Starbucks!
Oregon has two halves, the dry farm country, and the hipster west coast. There’s more I promise, I haven’t seen it all. The country side, atleast where I was, there are a lot of hardworking, pro-gun, farmers, and Republicans. Portland has got a mix, and I’m pretty sure there’s a majority of tree-huggers, and Democrats. It rains a lot here like Seattle so prepare for that. I went on a few outdoor runs in Portland and the houses are beautiful. There’s also this really awesome ice cream shop that has the random-est flavors.
Can’t forget about Hawaii. Kauai is known as the Garden Island of the chain. It’s beautiful here. Again ABC stores are pretty pricey so save up folks. Jurassic Park was filmed here. Lots of beaches to snorkel and lounge at. Some are less touristy. The big island, Kona, has the volcanic parts and green parts. Take a helicopter ride around to see it all! Be sure to buy a good tourist book that will help you find your way around these islands.
Well folks, I’ve been to a few other places (Australia, London, Germany, Poland) but I was too young to remember all of the details. One day I’ll add photos of my travels to my gallery. Hope you enjoyed this! Let me know what you think. Where have you been?
I decided to take a look at this beautiful new blog environment and submit the first blog on this new website. What better than answering the question "why are you in the clan?". When I talk to people, this clan can be one of the subjects of conversation. A common reflex: "Why are you in a gaming clan? You don't seem like a nerd?". Because that is what many people think. That we are nerds because we are in this clan. In this blog I will give you one reason why being in a gaming clan was a good idea for me. When I get time I might write other blogs, with other answers.
My reason why I am still in a gaming clan is very particular. Indeed, it all started with gaming. I played the game enemy territory and had lots of fun with my real life friends. During my exams I went looking for other servers to take a short break. I ended up on nq2, where I played with some regulars who wanted to play objective-based, balanced games. We decided to join FA, first purely to be able to use !put to even the teams. We moved to nq3 and things shifted from gaming to talking. We all joked together late evenings during what we called "specparties". We became friends.
When I had difficult times in my life, I had the luxury to have two friend groups to help me trough. When my real life friends grew tired of my nagging, my friends on the server were there for me. To give sense to my existence during those difficult times and to thank this second group of friends, I started helping out a lot on the forums. I was the one making gameday posts, I made some tutorials and so on. Years later here I am, a leader of a gaming clan. Unplanned and never desired.
The lesson I learned from this experience and I want others to learn from it is this: you can never give too much to people who earned your respect. You will get back what you gave a thousandfold. Not only literally because these people will give you what you gave them, but also because you start feeling better about yourself when you help people. I decided to repeat the engagement I made online in my real life by doing volunteer work. As a result I now understand a lot more about the world and the people in it, my languages have improved and I get respect from people who know what I'm doing.
Be ambitious in everything you do in your life. When you lived your life, it will always be incomplete but at least you can say you took everything there was to take. To me (and of course this is personal), the time I spend gaming is better spent being part of a clan made up of beautiful, motivated people. That way you can help out and when you need it, eventually you will get something back.
I've been thinking about something. I don't know how interesting this will be for people but I have a rhetorical question that I want to share: I wonder if the ingenuity of children is to do with their willingness to try new things? Children learn much faster than adults, it's well-known... Unless it's biological, this is my conclusion.
I know I used to be fearless with technology. I would press all kinds of buttons and turn knobs. I didn't care. I don't take as many risks with that now... I bet you it's because I have mistakes logged in my brain that i remember, "Okay, you tried that once, so don't do it". Maybe that's our limitation as adults at times?
I know a child asked me recently what was wrong with my eye. Just straight up. I was taken aback, but it was also refreshing so I explained it was Strabismus. There was no meandering or "pussy-footing" around and finding out later... She just asked the question and got an answer... Of course, mistakes are USEFUL; they advise against being foolish. Taking too many precautions, however, can be equally damaging.
To put it plainly, apart from biology, I think children's ability to learn quickly has to do with their willingness to take risks; they don't have a pile of mistakes recorded to make them hesitate.
You may not see many rants from me and I may not be the best writer despite english being my first language! Well Swedish kinda is too. I’m sure many of you have feelings regarding this so comment as you wish. Anywho, I just wanted to write something about a topic I hold dear to my heart, and that is selfishness.
I assume you all are familiar with the term. If not here’s a brief definition from dictionary.com: “devoted to or caring only for oneself; concerned primarily with one's own interests, benefits, welfare, etc.” See the thing is, many times it goes unnoticed. We often times get caught in the cycle of work, home, maybe a gym visit, hobby, home, eat, game, sleep, whatever. We go about our day to day lives not realizing that we are being selfish. This is completely normal for every human. If we weren’t selfish we would be dead by now, extinct! This is the first rule for many EMS providers- Is the scene safe? Before caring for another individual they check if the scene is safe. They wait until it is. Then they move in and respond. Does this happen to you often in your daily lives? Is this how you respond to a stranger before conversing/reacting? What if you didn’t worry if the scene was safe; just make a move? Anyway now I’ve gotten off topic. Maybe I’m losing myself here. Maybe you can get some ideas from this. That it’s not selfish of you to do what you need to do, to save yourself from further harm, even if that means you have to avoid and leave some people. That it’s ok to be selfish. But maybe we're missing out on something greater.
I want to confess that I’ve been selfish. I’m going to avoid personal life and just focus on life online with FA. I was looking for an outlet, perhaps a separate world, from real world things. And thanks to the internet you can be in some way social. You can chat, voice chat, observe the virtual physical character of others, and last but not least get promoted. I fell back into the hands of ET after some years away and found FA. Recently I was accepted into the clan. This was due to work done not only but myself as well as many members that noticed me, encouraged me, and helped me. I couldn’t be more grateful. Perhaps things moved too fast! But I guess I deserved it. Nevertheless, I was joining, recruiting, and socializing out of my own selfishness. I wanted to be accepted. And there’s some excitement to getting accepted somewhere based of everything but looks. Now I’ve confused myself a little. Been drinking some wine. Surprised if you’ve lasted this far.
I haven’t been around FA long enough to truly grasp what is going on with who and where. All I can say is that it mimics the real world pretty well. You know why, because there are real people behind these users. People get sick, have accidents, vent their issues, ask for help, get mad, get crushes, make friendships. It really sucks to see people pulling some major troll business. Ultimate selfishness. You see, I don’t have any issues with people being selfish, but I do when their actions start affecting others. What about lack of action? Same thing there though because some major issues can occur if someone decides to back down and not stand up for what’s right. I’m glad to have joined a clan with similar tolerance levels. There seems to be a lot of good morals in the roots of this FAmily tree. There are a lot of unselfish people looking out for one another. And this is what keeps a community thriving.
We all have our selfish and unselfish moments. Notice them, work on them! Look out for your own safety. You are priceless! Help someone everyday. I’m still growing up. I have a lot to work on. I’m asking you to remember that there are lives behind each of us here. So please remember one another if you can, if you want to be a productive member of this community. Remember your recruits and recruiters. Reach out and keep contact with one another! I get it that sometimes we may think, “Keep up or get lost.”, but also keep in mind that we shouldn’t let one another fall behind or get unnoticed when there’s effort.
Well there’s my first blog. Hope it made sense and that you enjoyed some piece of it. Neuro OUT.
"I like nonsense; it wakes up the brain cells." - Dr. Seuss
Howdy folks! Been a few days, I know. My consistency has gone out the window and I apologize to those of you who take the time out of your lives to read my random babblings. So I'm currently engorging myself with a large pizza and cheesy bread, and a 2 litre of coca-cola. Not healthy I am aware, but due to my active history/lifestyle I require about 4000 Calories a day or else I become lightheaded and all around dont feel good. Ugh main problem with that is when i grocery shop for just myself it costs about 400$ per trip which is about once every 3-3.5 weeks. My favorite meal: Jambalaya with Andouille sausage. Also, kinda depends on the time of year... Xmas time and such i really like chicken and dumplings. Or some reallllllllly good from scratch chicken noodle soup/ beef stew. What are yalls favorite meals?? I wanna get to know yall as best as possible because who knows, we may end up running into eachother without even meaning to ... would be one hell of a meet and greet lol. Hope yall are doin alright and keeping your spirits up. If ever yall need anything/ anyone to talk to just let me know and i promise to do whatever it is i can so as to help. Take care yall, until next time!
Howdy y'all, I know it's been a few days since i last posted. I have been both extremely busy and quite tired after work. Anyhow, this is whats been up: a friend of mine is pregnant, a buddy just returned from deployment, a divisional dinner tonight at Sushi King in Norfolk, and still no real progress on the healing of my leg. I'm being referred to Orthopedics for MRI's and further testing/therapy. Also, i took it upon myself to become a better individual by enrolling in telecom style anger management. I'm starting to see a change for the better. I've been playing INS again which is a nice switch from the DOI and Stellaris binge I've currently been on. Finding a lot of non clan regulars who think its awesome we as members jump in alongside them and play. It's very fun to answer their questions and listen to their feedback about how our servers are their favorite hands down. Talk about a good feeling! So, this post, its for all of yall that make it possible to game on such well maintained servers and allow so many people a great friendly environment in which to be themselves and enjoy these awesome games. Lastly, I would like to thank all of the Veterans, Active Duty, and Reservists for their service. Tomorrow is Veterans Day in the States, and Remembrance Day in Canada. For those who gave the ultimate sacrifice, risk that sacrifice, and support your country and your familys, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I'm proud to serve alongside you all whether it be for the Stars and Stripes, or the Red and White, thank you. Take care folks i'll see you on the servers
Howdy all, today was a pretty bland saturday. though it is not yet complete. Today i went to work, took care of some administrative paperwork, went and got my truck serviced, and now surfing the forums. Later this evening is by far the most important part of the night: Alabama vs LSU in college football. I'm a die hard Alabama fan, always have been. Some would even say its the same level of commitment I put towards my friends lol, hoping to also continue the Stellaris campaign myself, Armory, and Blue have strung together. On a slightly different note/shameless plug: if youre able, should donate a few bucks, not a lot but some pocket change towards the yearly goal, ever since i joined last year it seems to be plateauing and gettin down to the wire. I know why everyone is in this clan: great camaraderie, great friends, and tons of gaming .... In another aspect I have grown to respect a lot of people on here and their ability to be friendly and professional. Keep it up =F|A=, people are taking notice in games from all over, they see our tag and they notice that's what exposure is all about, just make sure you represent us the way the clan deserves. Keep on keepin on folks.
So I log onto forums and discord. Its friday. Oh my god was it hilarious. "i was legit concerned of his lactating nipples and one nut" lmfao i never thought i'd hear that in a random conversation. This has by far been the most hilarious and awesome group of people i've met in a long time. I have a Submariner's sense of humor and these peeps definitely share it to an extent. I'm just happy I found a community that is just as random as I can be sometimes. Time to start some gaming for the weekend and enjoy the banter. Friday is a short post... I dont know how to lengthen it. Oh well always remember, professionalism and friendship combine to form.... well... fun
As yall have read, it's been frustrating and lots of me bitching/moaning about how the people I work with suck. Well today after sitting down with leadership and explaining why it is exactly that I blew up on them Saturday, they fully understood. I'm back to not having to stay overnight for duty days (mainly because I'm on light duty restrictions, and not in full duty status). Also means I'm in an overall better mood. I'm not one to so quickly talk to someone i've blown up at/ gotten mad at. Also, side note, if i get angry with someone here be warned i wont talk about it/ talk with you for a few days minimum. I get very heated and hold a grudge sometimes as well as walk away from situations that i get angry with. It takes me some time to cool off and be able to calmly talk about something like that. Anyway, things are taking a turn for the better. The whole punishment of me staying over night was actually supposed to be a bluff, and my Chief didnt expect me to go with it. He said that only solidified everything i was telling him in my favor. I apologize for the unprofessional display of behavior through venting on this blog and through the status. That doesnt look good for newcomers and I will continue to try and better myself about it and handle matters accordingly.
So, as yall know by now I dont exactly have the most favorable working hours. Lately I've gone beyond the call so-to-speak and put in extra hours to help the division get prepared for upcoming maintenance and evolutions. Well all that hard work and extra time was thrown away and credited to someone who didn't do a single thing. Those in the division proceeded to berate me, saying I haven't done anything and im just using my injury for personal gain/getting out of work. After a day like today I really didnt want to be around anyone. Feeling this kind of neglect from people you are supposed to lay your life down for is just overwhelming. It almost broke me. How can I justify sacrifice for someone so ungrateful? The days go on. Tomorrow is most likely another working day. I really dont know if it is or isn't. I walked out of work without finding out. I'll show up when I show up tomorrow. The leadership is even blaming me for stuff I wasn't even present for, its stuff that occurred while I wasn't even on base, instead I was at my Temporary duty location. Just goes to show, a toxic command climate and incompetence is ever present. I cannot wait to leave this boat for good and get out of this waste of a Navy. I just want a life again. What I have now is just meaningless existence. A life isnt something you wake up one morning asking why i choose to put myself through this ordeal. A life doesnt make you question every decision that lead you to this point. A life is freedom and happiness. That of which I haven't had in so long, it's only a faint memory... Goodnight.
Ok I dont have a lot of time tonight. Work was annoying beyond all reason, physical therapy I swear is where they send you to make the injury worse, and lastly a good friend is back in the clan. Patience and reason win out. A lot were fighting for him. Glad things worked out. Let's not do that again, with anyone... (unless they are sabotaging servers and shiznit)... you know, uncool things. its 10:45pm my time. 2245 for you military folk. yeah im military but im not in uniform at the moment. Been brainstorming ideas for DOI. Not server related but DOI section of forums more so. Check them out in the suggestions page if ya get a chance... and yeah no shame for that little plug lol. Well thats it for me tonight, stay rowdy yall.
Woke up this morning. It was raining. Started out as a normal day. Inventoried 10,000 repair parts with associated storage locations for the inspection next week. Got a hair cut. Came home and found a burning bag of shit had exploded everywhere as soon as I got online. Holy.... f***..... that just happened. I dont know everything. I wont claim to know, that isnt my place, my call, my fight. Damn. I went to sleep thinking progress had been made, yet it was more so reverted to draconian/ stone age measures. Oh well. I can't judge, I'm not in that position. I remained unbiased through the events which unfolded and presented themselves. I'll stay unbiased. No taking sides. Taking a side means you've given up on the other. I prefer to sit back. Some say that's cowardly. I say that sitting back is the only way. See the field. Watch everything come together and drift apart. Find common denominators. Experience the variables. I prefer to feel the winds of change and see what happens. There is a saying I want yall to remember, (and yes i said yall, i noticed there are multiple people who read these little posts), that saying is: Experience is knowledge gained one second too late. It's kinda related to the other saying more commonly known: My personal experience is... (this saying is typically a preface to a bad experience or a hold my beer moment). This has been one hell of a Tuesday. Definitely one of the lesser enjoyable ones. I apologize to those of you who have become wrapped up in all this. Wish I could have done more to prevent such things. I sat back too long instead of voicing my concerns in time. Shit happens. It always does. Time to blow off some steam.
Throughout my life I've never tried to fit in a group of people. I always thought the best people come to you and to never chase anyone. When I landed in this clan I joined for the Family core values I saw and respected, what this clan stood for. Love, respect, no bigotry, no hate, no racism, this was my perfect ideal world of people that could get along no matter there pasts, coinciding respect and etc. I met great people here and continue to this day learn different experiences from both older and younger members/trials/regulars of this clan. Now that is only the feeling of what I get this clan stood for with the Family motto. Feel free to laugh at me continuously but this is my past and this is why I joined. I never had a real functional family, this isn't meant to be the boy who cried wolf but just a touch upon my experiences. I know people have had it way worse, this is a way to get to know me like I'd like to know you guys/gals. At a young age I saw my mother abused, my father be a drunk and my grandfather go to prison for 20 years. Needless to say I didn't have any good role models except my mother. I got intoafist fight with my father multiple times where I knocked him out throughout my life. police came every time, the form they gave us to fill out for family dispute became so familiar after these fights I knew it by heart at the time. My father kept illegal guns and always stuck me into an awkward position of bailing him out of his troubles at a young age. This spiraled to me getting involved with gangs with other reasons in my life which I haven't really talked about here. Introducedto drugs at a young age that didn't help either. I was "Friends" with a gang in ri and ma both of which brought me and them serious trouble which I somehow always seemed to avoid. bailing them out from getting arrested, saving there ass, the guns, the fights, it always flashes back as regrets. But only a yearago before I joined this was my idea of a family. A life and and a elaborate past which I haven't explained even here in this blog to a good extent. I only wanted to touch upon it. So with this being said which isn't much just understand that I like everyone in this clan, I have horrible communication skills sometimes which a lot of you have seen more than others. But I always mean well to you guys. When I look at people in this clan I don't see Leaders, staff, trials, regulars, I see everyone as equal with equal things to offer in a difgferent category of the clan. I never mean to piss anyone off. I like all of you. And I enjoy seeing this clan grow. This is my escape I guess to say from my past. To anyone I've ever insulted by mistake, back lashed at, got into an argument with, just understand I'm sorry whether I was wrong or right. I like all of you and want to help in whatever way I can for all of you if you come to me. I'm proud to be a part of this community, scratch that, not community... FAmily. I never had a core understanding of a family.. So forgive me, I'm learning. And this is me asking for help.
Alright folks. A little tidbit of advice. If progress is desired, and by progress I mean mutually beneficial success, there is but one integral variable to the equation. That variable is communication. Without communication there is not a chance in hell anything can move forward. Maintain professionalism, maintain poise, and above all, maintain an open mind. It is difficult to hear and accept other's opinions/train-of-thought. I'm not suggesting you alter the way you feel about something, that isn't the objective. The goal for communication is to adequately express one's expectations/ thoughts, so that whomever it concerns can mull it over and find some sort of common ground. Even if there isn't common ground found right away and the parties end up disagreeing, it could prove critical later on. Always always always trust in communication, and if direct communication is less favorable due to emotional investment, find a moderator and utilize them in a professional manner. This tool is paramount to success and progress. Without communication things get out of hand and nobody knows what/where/when/who/why/how things are supposed to be. Never lose sight of bettering one's self and the others around you. Be better.
So. It is official. This weekend sucks. 8 hour work days leading into a strand of 16 straight days of maybe a total of 100+ hours. no overtime. yeah i'm salty about it. Playing DOI on our awesome server though helps blow off steam. Sometimes i wonder if what i'm doing really has an effect on my future. Like.... Is this really what i want to be known for? working with no real social life outside of the people i work with?.... ugh the sound of that frustrates me. Oh well shit happens. Wedding planning with the fiance via skype/facetime definitely adds to the stress level... anyone got any good tips for stress that dont involve a green plant or excess alcohol? i get out of work after the gun ranges close up. i have to work to early to really go out anywhere.... im going insane. day by day i try for more activity but i'll be damned if that can happen. well rant completed. listening to some chill music right now. EDM really has a great expanse of styles to help relax the mind. maybe tomorrow wont be so bad and i'll get home before lunch.
Never thought it would happen. Blogging as a 24yr old USN Sailor. Ha! Listening to music and typing. What to say?.... How was my day? The answer is simple: Meh. When it comes to work I've been thrown just about everywhere.... Wait, maybe the reader would like a little background, yeah? OK, I'm a Cajun that was born in Louisiana, and grew up for the most part in Alabama. I'm a southern boy through and through. I have experienced the northern states of New England area and reside in Virginia. I've been a part of the USN for 4 and a half years now. I've met many people. I have a small circle of friends. I dont like having a bunch of friends. Anyone who is my friend I feel is more like family. I dont like to step on toes, but im not afraid to stand up for what i believe in. So, back to my day. Yeah it started slow and ended slow. When it comes to my line of work if its a slow day it means people aren't doing what they are supposed to do. Currently listening to music, typing this, and trying to coordinate planning a wedding with my fiance who lives hundreds of miles away. Gotta love how life pans out right? By the way i failed to mention that the reason i've been thrown into just about every duty at my work is because I am not fit for full duty... in other words i'm broken and cant perform my responsibilities to the required expectation all thanks to a torn hamstring. I'm a nuclear machinist mate second class... aka E-5 in the Navy. I've had so many different job opportunities in the 10 years i've been working from yard work/landscaping to construction, to now operating a Nuclear power plant on a submarine. Growing up i thought i'd just be another southern boy going nowhere and living in the same old small town. Now i'm engaged, travelling up and down the east coast and learning so much more than i thought would be possible. I never really give my experiences the credit they deserve, and i know how weird that sounds. Take it from me, when you look back at how you wanted yourself to grow to be when you were younger and look yourself in the mirror now... is it the same or have you changed along with any ideals/morals you developed? I can say i dont take the same things for granted... yes i still take things for granted but i'm quicker on the pickup about it. Tomorrow is a work day for me. Hoping that translates into a short work day and i can still maybe catch the Alabama football game on tv. Yes i say Roll tide, i shoot guns, i fish, i drive a truck.. I'm a walking stereotype. I'll post when i post, i wont make any promises on daily or even weekly posts. took me forever to find out how to even make a blog. Lets see how it goes.
Just wanted to let everyone know my status. Foot is totally screwed. I've been in and out of the hospital because of infections in it. They can't seem to get it under control. Just when we think its gone away it comes back. But anyways haven't been able to play in a while I'm really sorry about that. Hope to be on this week. Thx Soup