Wolf, you always write don't spam this. But sometimes I think spamming a post is best, because it loosens the chains of seriousness and allows for a more free flowing and unweighted conversation. In now way am I promoting spamming, because it can be a hassle, but just consider that life is too short to always be serious. My paps taught me that.
I think your apology is well meant and yeah it has a lot to do with your age. I have a brother who is the same age as you and in no way is as mature as you are, but I still see the foolishness and immaturity that he shows in you. And something that I have learned through this and that others I am sure have as well, is to just be patient. We have all been there and done that, trust me. It's not something to be ashamed of or to condone, but something to appreciate and be aware of. It teaches us many things and is part of the natural cycle of life. Patience helps us through the cycle and for those in direct effect, patience allows us and you in this case the time to think about your actions and address them in the appropriate manner.
Yeah you hurt some people, but we are grown people who have been there themselves. It still hurts to say the least, but it's not something you put a grudge on or label someone by. I'm not going to lie Wolf, and I am sure your read it when you were trial/member because you're a smart kid. I didn't think you were ready because of immaturity and age. I'm not going to say I was right, because there were times were you proved yourself and others saw that and were proud. But you really messed it up towards the end. Understandable. You're a kid and allowed to make those mistakes. Once I was your age (and not to long ago) and I was immature and did stupid stuff. And I always thought I was right and the world was wrong. Shit sometimes I still think that, then get my ass handed to me on a silver platter. I was a smart kid too. Did well in school and had a job early and was trusted. Because of a little immaturity and falling out, doesn't make you or anyone else not smart, or not trustworthy. It doesn't uproot your life. It just makes new challenges and goals to set and overcome, of which you will have no issue in overcoming; I'm sure of that.
We put a lot of faith in you. We brought you into the FAmily. You never truly leave. There are always good times to be had by all. These are what we remember. We get over the negativity and that's what you need to do. And this is a start and a good one at that. There are more direct apologies that you should give, and you know to who. But you have to mean it.
Give it time. Reapply. We want you back, but you have to want to come back.