My absence

[Nikolai]

Hello! It's been a while.

First, I'd like to apologize for the silence. I should have made a post, especially because I applied FA and got accepted as a trial member. Frankly, it just didn't even come to my mind. I just had to take my own time and step out of the internet.

Let's just say my summer didn't go as intended. The minor reason was we got fibre connection dug on our land, but some strikes in the industry postponed the actual connection. I was not able to play properly with the 4g connection being what it is in the countryside sometimes. We finally got the fibre last month though, and I'm finally able to play again without issues.

 

The main reason though is my family. My step-dad got diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in early summer, and it totally stopped my life. The diagnose was worst possible, it couldn't be operated and it had already spread. I barely remember anything that happened during the summer, besides my job. While working in August, my father was hospitalized because of complications the cancer had made. We were ready to say goodbyes to him, but he got better and was able to stay home with my mother for almost couple of months. Eventually the cancer spread to his brain and he got a huge epilepsy seizure that lasted overnight. He wasn't unable to recover after it. Fortunately I was able to see him once more to say final goodbyes, although he couldn't respond back anymore.  My father passed away 2 weeks ago just moments after I left the hospital. Life sucks sometimes, but we all have to leave this place eventually. I am happy and fortunate that I had my step-father there for me when I was a child that had just lost his real father. He was there for me during my youth and adulthood as well, beautiful memories.

 

I'd like to thank @Ins4neand @yakuand few others for asking how I was doing, and setting me as inactive member.

 

I will slowly get back, but I'd like to keep my inactive status for now. We can always go back to the trial, when I have the time and strength again.

 

💔Nikolai 

Edited November 2, 2022 by Nikolai
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[yaku]

I'm really sorry about your lose, these wounds for sure need time to heal. If you need to talk you know where to find me.

 

It' nice to have you back, even if only partially!

 

❤️

[Lusciousdrunk]

🙁 So sorry to hear that man! 

[GHARIB]

SOrry to hear this.

Be strong mate, I had almost the same with my father, and I know what you feel.

My PM always open.

[Vasylich]

I hope he now finds the peace that he lacked so much during his illness. Eternal memory!

[Apollonius]

I'm so sorry... my sincere condolences. May your father rest in peace.

 

Take all the time you need.

 

My father passed away very suddenly a year ago, from COVID-like illness. One week he's there, the next week it's just an empty room. It was a nightmare during nation-wide lockdown and the morbid situation surrounding the pandemic. That chapter's been like a scar of my life, and what I regret the most, for many reasons.

 

I'm happy for the wonderful memories you had together, and how you both were there for each other.

[Barb*]

Hey there, 

 

I´m sorry to read this. I know perfectly how you feel. 11 years ago, i lost my dad from a cancer too, he was 51...i didn´t have time to say goodbye. 

They will always be by our side mate...they left us big memories. Easier to say than to do is to smile thinking about him, but all you got to remember is the old good memories with him. Pain doesn´t disappear, but with time we just learn to live with it. 

Be strong

Friendly, BaRbWiRe*

[Vindstot]

Im so sorry to hear that this happend to me. It must have been really hard on your and on your family

I wish your recover emotionally as much as possible quickly

And take care! Real life comes first, and when you feel like (fully) come back, we will be here!

[LookItIsMe]

Hey Nikolai!

Just want to say again that I'm really sorry for your loss. 

Please take all the time you need. No rush. I'm sure we'll be here waiting for you. 

I hope the beautiful memories of your dad bring you some comfort during this difficult time. 

My thoughts are with you. 

Edited November 2, 2022 by LookItIsMe

[Lt Steiner]

I'm very sorry for your loss, Nikolai. With all its beauty the world still can be terribly cruel sometimes.

 

Take good care of yourself and your family, ET can wait.

[AnG3L]

Be strong 😕

Irl first.

Edited November 2, 2022 by AnG3L

[mehmet]

I'm sorry for your loss, there will be an end to everything in the world! 

Sometimes we realize the value of what we have after we lose it... Bring good memories to your mind and be happy with them!

I'm here if you want to talk.

Be strong ! 

[Tigress]

I am very sorry for your loss.. 

[SunSet]

Thats sad, sorry for your loss.

Stay strong man.

[oliveirapt]

4 hours ago, Nikolai said:

Hello! It's been a while.

First, I'd like to apologize for the silence. I should have made a post, especially because I applied FA and got accepted as a trial member. Frankly, it just didn't even come to my mind. I just had to take my own time and step out of the internet.

Let's just say my summer didn't go as intended. The minor reason was we got fibre connection dug on our land, but some strikes in the industry postponed the actual connection. I was not able to play properly with the 4g connection being what it is in the countryside sometimes. We finally got the fibre last month though, and I'm finally able to play again without issues.

 

The main reason though is my family. My step-dad got diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in early summer, and it totally stopped my life. The diagnose was worst possible, it couldn't be operated and it had already spread. I barely remember anything that happened during the summer, besides my job. While working in August, my father was hospitalized because of complications the cancer had made. We were ready to say goodbyes to him, but he got better and was able to stay home with my mother for almost couple of months. Eventually the cancer spread to his brain and he got a huge epilepsy seizure that lasted overnight. He wasn't unable to recover after it. Fortunately I was able to see him once more to say final goodbyes, although he couldn't respond back anymore.  My father passed away 2 weeks ago just moments after I left the hospital. Life sucks sometimes, but we all have to leave this place eventually. I am happy and fortunate that I had my step-father there for me when I was a child that had just lost his real father. He was there for me during my youth and adulthood as well, beautiful memories.

 

I'd like to thank @Ins4neand @yakuand few others for asking how I was doing, and setting me as inactive member.

 

I will slowly get back, but I'd like to keep my inactive status for now. We can always go back to the trial, when I have the time and strength again.

 

💔Nikolai 

i know what your going truth i just lost my mother about a month i feel so empty inside didnt get the chance to say goodbye among other things(we were close) if you need im here to talk