Krauersaut

I probably shouldn't link to other forums, but thought this specific thread here might prove useful to you and others. It's a wonderful read, with a great sense of community.

Long post, but yeah:

It's not as simple as: how do I get out of it? If it were, there would probably be no sufferers.

I don't suffer from depression, as such, though I have been through some pretty brutal patches in my life; once it lasted just over a year and a half. My main issue is severe anxieties, mostly in the form of social anxiety. These would spiral out of control and eventually lead me into a depression, which would be heightened by said anxieties. While I was in college, I was going Monday-Friday in class and then I would be working double shifts on weekends (12 hours on both Saturday and Sunday) and, during my third year, I picked up an extra internship as a market researcher on Thursday and Friday, so for about 5 years I was almost literally going 7 days straight, thus not working on any of the issues I had.

I remember Christmas, maybe 2009, it got so bad that I emailed my manager to ask for time off during the holidays, as I know that I couldn't take it anymore. She was genuinely surprised that I was going through such a bad time (believe me, I was: there's a strange euphoric sense when you reach rock bottom and think; it can't get much worse than this), and thankfully gave me the time off, so once I came back in January, I was feeling much better.

Eventually I quit that job in August 2010, so I could focus on my final year of college and when that was done come that May, I took time off and decided to focus on myself.

Now, my anxieties are in check; I forced myself out of my comfort zone by doing things like holidaying by myself so I was forced to socialize with people, making myself attend events and meet new people and exercising more. So any anxieties about myself or my body are more or less under control, though I have developed a slight belly that I'm trying to get rid of.

I'm not saying that what I did will work for everyone - I am an extremely thick headed and determined individual. And I'm not fully out of the woods yet, as I do sometimes get really bad patches, but for the most part, they're nowhere near as bad as they were.

So, going back to my original point; it's not as easy as saying, "how do I get out of it?"
It has to be you that gets yourself out of it. People can add you on xFire, send you PMs full of advice but when it comes down to it, until you take charge, it's going to mean diddly-squat. Look at how bad your depression is; would it warrant speaking to a specialist? (there is genuinely nothing wrong with this, in my third year of college I went to my college counselor). Should you be on some form of medication? (again, nothing wrong with this - I was on them for 6 months and am so delighted that I did). Is there anything causing said depression and could these circumstances be changed? (as in, if you're working in a shit job, living with shit people, have shit friends).

Mh, I don't know if sponsors would acutally be interested. The sponor's interests are, in general, professinal gaming clans, who play for rate in tourneys, etc. The simple reason behind this is that the pro-gamers make better publicity/advertisment for the sponso'rs name. In the Electronic Sports section, sponsors usually are hardware or software companies. With professional gamers using their equipment and wearing their name, they make "normal" gamers buy their stuff, because normal gamers tend to think they'll become better with just the same equipment.
I don't really see the interest such a sponsor would have with simply putting up advertisement on our website. The profit margin is very low.

*blub*

Edit: The publicity and advertisements which already are here on forums, can easily be undone by purchasing a little silver, gold or platinum membership. That would help the clan even more
Edit2: And Silver membership is just 15 $ for a whole year. Not much money, but if many people purchase it, the server costs would be no problem at all.

I daresay that someone who knows ventrilo does, in general, also know the shortcut form "vent". If not, they are always free to google it. I mean, if I apply for a clan I can at least make some effort and inform myself on what they expect/want from members. If you put "vent" into google, it is there right away on top.

Sure, one could change "vent" into "ventrilo", but if someone asks in his application "what is vent" -> that's an indicator as well...

I wish you an early happy one for next year, atleast then I wont be to late.
But Gub, for the year to come, please be a little more active @ servers and forum...,
nah thanks for all the times you helped me/us till now! FA's a better place with you in it m8!

Wizbang, on 03 May 2012 - 04:05 AM, said:

No. But I recall a porno with that title.

speedfact, on 21 April 2012 - 09:44 PM, said:

Poor Speed

im not forum shy...just vent shy cause some people always make fun of my voice -.-

How exactly can I remove the crap here with my spam?

Scream, on 11 April 2012 - 08:14 AM, said:

Want some salt? -.- lol xD

I was just going by how ET levels were dealt with I should learn to STFU xD

I speak English and German, and that German we talk in western Austria which nobody elsewhere understands.
Some people say that my English is better than my German

Remember, back in the 1930's when the banks crashed and the whole economy was a POS?

How about in 2000 when the banks were crap and the economy a POS?

Anyone? Anyone remember at all?

It will not work, you want the price of gas to go down then tell Obama to stop importing  oil and start developing US resources once that happens the price will go down. Also price of gas in US is still way cheaper then in Canada so you guys have nothing to complain, only other way the price is going down is if the economy goes to the shit again. Supply and demand bitches.

Gives Alexandra enough time to clean her room, shave and take a bath.

TuNNel-Rat, on 14 February 2012 - 05:27 PM, said:

It's a well known fact that if you're good at ET then you're good/better than average in cod

I can haz doe