Depression

[DoC.FreeZeX]

Have you ever felt so depressed , so bad , as if you're stucked in a deep black hole and can't see the way out? can't see any light but total darkness.

 

if the answer is yes, i would like to know how did u mannege to get out of there ( and if its ok i would also like to know the reason for getting there at first place- pm me with the reason if you don't wanna write it here).

[Chuckun]

Feel free to add me on xfire buddy. Long term sufferer here.

[The Mangler]

Feel free to add me on xfire buddy. Long term sufferer here.

 

Same. Feel free to add me on xfire or message me on forums. Would be glad to talk it through.

[CSL]

Have you ever felt so depressed , so bad , as if you're stucked in a deep black hole and can't see the way out? can't see any light but total darkness.

 

if the answer is yes, i would like to know how did u mannege to get out of there ( and if its ok i would also like to know the reason for getting there at first place- pm me with the reason if you don't wanna write it here).

 

Iv'e been there buddy, feel free to PM me. The thing to remember is that there is a solution to even the worst of lifes problems and its sometimes very hard to see that when you are at the bottom of the hole, and although the process to get out of it is in many cases painful is not nearly as bad as the pain of the depression itself.

[BoomStick]

I probably shouldn't link to other forums, but thought this specific thread here might prove useful to you and others. It's a wonderful read, with a great sense of community.

 

Long post, but yeah:

 

It's not as simple as: how do I get out of it? If it were, there would probably be no sufferers.

 

I don't suffer from depression, as such, though I have been through some pretty brutal patches in my life; once it lasted just over a year and a half. My main issue is severe anxieties, mostly in the form of social anxiety. These would spiral out of control and eventually lead me into a depression, which would be heightened by said anxieties. While I was in college, I was going Monday-Friday in class and then I would be working double shifts on weekends (12 hours on both Saturday and Sunday) and, during my third year, I picked up an extra internship as a market researcher on Thursday and Friday, so for about 5 years I was almost literally going 7 days straight, thus not working on any of the issues I had.

 

I remember Christmas, maybe 2009, it got so bad that I emailed my manager to ask for time off during the holidays, as I know that I couldn't take it anymore. She was genuinely surprised that I was going through such a bad time (believe me, I was: there's a strange euphoric sense when you reach rock bottom and think; it can't get much worse than this), and thankfully gave me the time off, so once I came back in January, I was feeling much better.

 

Eventually I quit that job in August 2010, so I could focus on my final year of college and when that was done come that May, I took time off and decided to focus on myself.

 

Now, my anxieties are in check; I forced myself out of my comfort zone by doing things like holidaying by myself so I was forced to socialize with people, making myself attend events and meet new people and exercising more. So any anxieties about myself or my body are more or less under control, though I have developed a slight belly that I'm trying to get rid of.

 

I'm not saying that what I did will work for everyone - I am an extremely thick headed and determined individual. And I'm not fully out of the woods yet, as I do sometimes get really bad patches, but for the most part, they're nowhere near as bad as they were.

 

So, going back to my original point; it's not as easy as saying, "how do I get out of it?"

It has to be you that gets yourself out of it. People can add you on xFire, send you PMs full of advice but when it comes down to it, until you take charge, it's going to mean diddly-squat. Look at how bad your depression is; would it warrant speaking to a specialist? (there is genuinely nothing wrong with this, in my third year of college I went to my college counselor). Should you be on some form of medication? (again, nothing wrong with this - I was on them for 6 months and am so delighted that I did). Is there anything causing said depression and could these circumstances be changed? (as in, if you're working in a shit job, living with shit people, have shit friends).

[DoC.FreeZeX]

Apperently when i talk with friends, it seems like that everyone think i have everything a guy could want in his life.

I just beacme 20, i have a good circle of friends ( 7friends to be spasific) and they all really love me and respect me. most of the time it even feels as if i'm the "gravity" center of this group.

Most of them find me as a "key" character, following me, listening to me and asking for my advice\consult.

 

As i was saying, i just became 20, and in 1 month more or less ( 21/6/12) i'll finish my b.a., my 1st degree in logistic management& economic. I'm aware to the fact that it might not be a "big deal' to be 20 and have a b.a. already in europe or usa, but in Israel( my contry) it is a huge deal.

In addition i'll be going to the army for 6 years, tho i'll be working there. i'll gain experience by working in my b.a. subject.

I'm really friendly, i do look good and i have the body.. (6pack\ etc etc..).

Money was never an issue since im a hard worker and i know how to handle money pretty well.

 

Apperently it seems like im on the right direction, one which i set for my self and wasnt forced to go in this path.

add to that is the fact that most of the girls i dated kept on saying "wow ur something specil, ur unique,, i've never seen something like you".

Regardless to everything i just said i have this constant feeling of "im not happy" "im not satesfide".

 

Despite of everything i've mentioned, im not happy.. im not satesfide... when i look in the miror i just got "fft... stfu".

 

Its funny because while im reading what i wrote part of me think "wtf, who's that whinner.. tell him to st.. he should be happy.. he's just a drama queen".

 

How can it be that societty sees me as a "hot shot" thanks to everything i've achived and will achive.. while im the ONLY one who think " f*** this.. this is all shit, its worthless.. its nothing".

 

and im hidding it in my self from my sorounding due to the reason that everytime the reactions i get r " you should be happy.. you're on the right path" ... how come im the only one who think "this is shit.. its worthless" ??

[DoC.FreeZeX]

i mean just because it seems you have everything doesnt mean you have everything. :S... sorry i sound like a whinner...

[Ghostwind]

i mean just because it seems you have everything doesnt mean you have everything. :S... sorry i sound like a whinner...

 

You are not whining, you are asking for help, which is a good thing. Perhaps it would be good to speak with your doctor, a psychologist, or a counselor. There are plenty of reasons to feel down and blue, which is normal. Questions to ask yourself are: have you recently experienced any psychological trauma (bereavement, an accident, a sudden change in your life circumstances like job loss, etc...); how long have you been feeling like this?; Have these feelings affected your energy levels or interests?; How are you sleeping at night?

 

Any of these things can affect your mood, and may indicate depression or something else. Since there are a few things that could be going, I would urge you to speak with a medical professional about what is going on in your life.

 

The good thing, though, is that if you do have depression, most episodes resolve themselves after about 6 months without any intervention. With intervention (therapy and/or medication) can greatly reduce this period of time.

 

Good luck

[Achiyan]

Aww man. Eating maybe twice, three times if lucky, a week. Feeling of constant uneasiness. Sleep? Whats that. Or, sleep? Too much. At one point I was drinkin like 4-5 forties a night. I would openly post more details about it now that its behind me, but I dont feel like doin that much typing on my phone.

getting out of that depression wasnt easy, but temporary happiness helps tons

Edited May 23, 2012 by Achiyan

[DoC.FreeZeX]

its been a while i have this feeling, i think it started 5months ago.. it happent when the woaman i was "with" left me.

even tho we're talking now i still feel awful sometimes... and im pretty sure she's not the cuase of this bad\ down feeling, what happent with her just gave me an excuse to shout " im not happy" and ask for help.

Since the moment i did it i've notice this thing is way to big for me to handle by my self so almost right away i talked with my friends\ mom&dad and started seen a psychologist.

 

*temporary happiness helps tons*- i have plenty of those... but after a while it feels as if its a cure to the simptop rather then the diseas.

im advancing slowly but steadly with the psychologist.

i used to play much more on the computer and love hanging out with friends and stuff, but this days i.. i find it boring, im sitting with my friends talking and luaghing while im fading away from the inside.. wearing a fake

smile and show everyone that im fine im cool...even if its not like that.

i messed my self really hard

[Krayzie]

Gotta talk to friends, and people close to you. I kept it bottled up inside. Got to the point where i had tried to overdose and slit my wrists. Had said my goodbyes to ones in cared about. Luckily had a friend who cared more about my life then I at the point. She called the cops and tthey should up with me and a .40 to my head.

 

Long story short. Talk to people. Distract your mind from thinking about it. I was always told to right down in a book what i wwas feeling if I did not feel like talking. You can't let it overtake your life. If you start to feel down do something you enjoy. Or go do something the gets your brain and blood flowing like a physical Activity. We are all here to help others if needed.

[docwarren]

Don't hide it. Talk to someone. Doing it here is a start.

 

I have PTSD as my underlying cause, but depression is a day to day thing. Some good days..... some bad.

 

As others have put out there.... feel free to add me on xfire if you want to discuss.