Lets start this from the beginning.

At the start of 2011 I stumble into a beginners jaymod server.

It's wonderful, admins doing their job and maintaining a fun

environment to players to derp around. But the troll inside me

that had developed during puberty, woke up. I started spamming

and harassing other players and admins. The admins took it for a

while, I was surprised, but kept going. Then Joker stopped me.

Got muted several times and even kicked, then I applied.

(Can't remember what I was thinking)

''Nooo way. B!tch at the server, spam a lot, messing with teammates''

Then I realised what I was like, I was like an 9 year old.

I started to change, tried to be better, tried to behave.

My re-apply got denied immediately, didnt wait 3 months.

I actually started to hate the people that I was like just a few months ago.

Spamming vsays, b!tching, moaning, crying all the time.

I helped admins, defused arguments and tried but failed at busting cheaters.

When I did my second re-apply I thought to myself, third time's a charm.

''Wow, seeing ur old application and this new one proves

that you did a 180 turn, looks like you went thru some changes and learned a thing or two.'' Purpish.

''Okay. Extended trial though.'' Krauersaut

At this point I had learned so much from admins, my english had gotten a lot better, I got more patience and, well, more polite.

I was a trial member for about 1,5 years, I got asked many times that

why am I not a full member yet, I always gave the same answer; " They (higher admins) have their reasons and im happy with what I have."

Last autumn I resigned, didnt have time to be active. Now im writing this in a bus going back to army from vacation as man that has to

give his thanks to this amazing community that made him what he is.