Lets start this from the beginning.
At the start of 2011 I stumble into a beginners jaymod server.
It's wonderful, admins doing their job and maintaining a fun
environment to players to derp around. But the troll inside me
that had developed during puberty, woke up. I started spamming
and harassing other players and admins. The admins took it for a
while, I was surprised, but kept going. Then Joker stopped me.
Got muted several times and even kicked, then I applied.
(Can't remember what I was thinking)
''Nooo way. B!tch at the server, spam a lot, messing with teammates''
Then I realised what I was like, I was like an 9 year old.
I started to change, tried to be better, tried to behave.
My re-apply got denied immediately, didnt wait 3 months.
I actually started to hate the people that I was like just a few months ago.
Spamming vsays, b!tching, moaning, crying all the time.
I helped admins, defused arguments and tried but failed at busting cheaters.
When I did my second re-apply I thought to myself, third time's a charm.
''Wow, seeing ur old application and this new one proves
that you did a 180 turn, looks like you went thru some changes and learned a thing or two.'' Purpish.
''Okay. Extended trial though.'' Krauersaut
At this point I had learned so much from admins, my english had gotten a lot better, I got more patience and, well, more polite.
I was a trial member for about 1,5 years, I got asked many times that
why am I not a full member yet, I always gave the same answer; " They (higher admins) have their reasons and im happy with what I have."
Last autumn I resigned, didnt have time to be active. Now im writing this in a bus going back to army from vacation as man that has to
give his thanks to this amazing community that made him what he is.