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  1. Just got my laptop today, will look into installing cod 4 on it sometime soon so i can get back into the servers

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    Life

    So, i dont know if anybody will read this but here i go. As i talked about in my previous blog, I used to be addicted to pain pills due to a long lasting injury that i got hooked on just from being on them for so long and eventually self medicating for my mood swings. But as of today, i am one year and one month clean and to me that is a HUGE milestone. Since i got clean, i took up working out to occupy my time and i have seen some tremendous gains. When i started working out I weighed a measly 138 pounds and standing 6 foot 1 inch tall. I put my whole self into working out and gained almost 30 pounds in three months which was great to me. It has changed my life for the better in ways i couldn't have even imagined and i cant see myself not exercising and taking health important. Not only have i grown physically but i also grown mentally that has made me a better person. As of right now i weigh 164 pounds and im trying to stay around there because i pole vault with 165 pound pole and i just feel good using that pole and if i gained more weight, moving me to a heavier pole, i feel i wouldnt do as well as i am right now (probably just a mental thing though). Another thing is before i started lifting was that girls never really paid much attention to me, i guess because of drugs and i was really skinny but now that i have some weight to me, they seem interested. Weird right? (lol) The strange thing is however, i feel like no woman is worth my time just because of my attitude towards life is drastically different than most people my age and they just wont work well with me. I have been talking to this girl for a while now that i feel has been worth my time and i can definitely see myself with this woman long term, but there is big problem with our situation. When we started talking, she just got out of a year long relationship a month before and she recently told me that she feels as if we jumped into things too quick, which we kinda did. Not only that but we are graduating next month and i will be going to a college thats about 3.5 hours away and she is staying home to attend a local college. We talked about everything and we decided its probably best to not start a relationship just to have it ruined by distance and not being able to see each other often. I said we could try to work it out but she just did not want to get in another relationship and have her feelings hurt in the end, which i completely understand but it just hurts so damn much. I felt like i found someone that can be there for me and support me through everything and vice verse but it just isnt working out how i would like it. I guess you can say that its depressing me a little and i've been in a funk since we decided that. As i mentioned before i am senior in high school and a graduation requirement is senior project which i have been finishing up in the past few months and it has been placing a huge amount of stress on me. Tomorrow however, I give my presentation on it, giving a 15 minute speech in front of panel of judges who basically decide my fate, which as you can imagine is placing a lot of stress on me but i will feel relieved after its all over. With all this stuff that is happening and things that are not going how i would like it really suck, I just gotta keep on moving forward. But hey, thats life.
  3. Senior project is done, now the only thing left is graduation.

  4. Our boys team placed first in the county! of course there was big celebration after :P

    1. Raskin

      Raskin

      Congrats! Fun

  5. Hit a PR in javelin and pole vault. 137' 5" for jave and 11'6" in vault. County Champs here I come!

    1. Raskin

      Raskin

      good job...good luck ahead

    2. Sonofdoc
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    Where I'm From

    Hello F|A! I know i havent been on much lately and im trying to make efforts to do so, but ive decided to stop by once again. I just wanted to say if any of you are interested in where i come from (Im not sure why you would but there are people who like learning about different places of the world) you can watch Friday Night Tykes Steel country in a few days. No im not trying to advertise the show lol i just love where i come from and i like to share. Sure the show is focused around mighty mites football, but thats how life is around here, football. Not only that but it looks somewhat inspiring to see how many greats came from this area. The narrator summed it up pretty well "In Texas football is religion, but in Beaver County Pennsylvania...football is life.) I love where i come from and being able to watch a football game whether it be highschool, professional, or peewee, its always exciting to see how serious we take the sport.
  7. It's not about what you get it's about who you are becoming
  8. Havent been able to make many appearences lately because I didnt realize how much time school would be taking up or how much life would change for me. Ill try to show up more often

  9. Well considering my highschool broke our 23 game losing streak in a huge upset, i'll be curing my hangover lol. Lots gatorade and aspirin for me today
  10. A friend of mine and star runnng back for Aliquippa sadly diagnosed with Leukiema #24Strong

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    2. Raskin

      Raskin

      Sorry... hoping for best for your friend

    3. Joshmeister

      Joshmeister

      Sorry to hear. My cousin died of neuroblastoma... I hope your friend does get better

    4. Pvt. Parts

      Pvt. Parts

      Thank you guys they said he is going to fully recover

  11. blahh finally quit one of my jobs

  12. Have some Italians over for San Rocco, they don't even speak english lol

  13. Pvt. Parts

    Tumblr

    i have one but some of you may not find it too appealing. hewdew.tumblr.com
  14. Workin two jobs now so that means even less time on server/forums

  15. USA! USA! USA!

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    sun

    Sun? What's that? Where i live it rained everyday except for i think four days this month.
  17. Anyone know if Temple is a good college? Thinking of applying there.

  18. If you are trying to decide between those two phones, the HTC one M9 is the better choice IMO. The one M9 obviously runs on android with HTCs "skin" or look, on top of it. Along side of android comes many customizable features that you won't see on Apple, such as widgets, different home screen styles, audio effects and more. You can even flash new roms (you can research that if you want because it would take me awhile to explain it lol ). Not only that but android usually has much much better battery life and is faster than iOS. One thing i love about apple though is the insanely good camera, and the M9 has a pretty crappy camera. Of course it is up to you but im kind of an android fanboy
  19. Pvt. Parts

    lil fail by me

    Hey that was better than my first time snowboarding, i didn't even go off any jumps haha
  20. Finished finals today. Now I am a senior

    1. Raskin

      Raskin

      congrats..

  21. Have not been on servers in a while but that ends tonight >:D

  22. Knowing the layout of the map and common places people go is pretty helpful as well. If you know those, you can quickly learn how to get around people more easily.
  23. Now i'm not usually one to beg for attention or talk much about my personal life to strangers, but I am feeling pretty lonely at the moment and i just want to vent for a minute. I don't know how many people will read this or care to read this but bear with me. Well, to start off, i played football since i moved to public school in 4th grade. At the time I wasn't good of course because i was young and my first year playing, however throughout middle school i got good. I mean very good at the position i played,which was strong safety. over that time i was gaining a lot of muscle weight and got up to 160 pounds at the end of 8th grade. Then, when i got to the highschool i obviously wanted to play football and was at the field every day in the summer practicing and lifting with older students. By the time practice officially started the coach had asked me to play for varsity rather than the freshman team. I was very excited because the last person to start varsity their freshman year was Rushel Shell who now is a running back for WVU. I started to think things like "Hey if im playing varsity this early, maybe i'll become a D1 football player!" Then 2 days before our first game, i felt a searing pain in my ankle during practice. I sat out for a little then went back to work because i thought i felt fine and finished practice in a lot of pain. When i got home and took off my cleat, my foot had hurt so bad i couldn't put a pound of pressure on it. Later we found that my foot and ankle looked very deformed and went to the hospital for some answers. They took x-rays, CT scans, and MRIs and found nothing. They did not know what was wrong with me but said it didn't look good. They told me the worst news i never thought i would hear, "Your football career might be over." I didnt want to believe it and started to cry. I was not going to be the great football player i was going to be. Maybe next year i would be fine and playing like normal i thought. Doctors were putting me on different medications that wouldnt take the pain away. By the middle of 9th grade i took my first opiate which did take the pain away. Next thing i know im taking them everyday so the pain would be gone, but because they made me so drowsy, i never wanted to do anything but lay down and i started to loose much of my weight. At the end of 9th grade i was under 140 pounds. It was so rough to see my life not go the way i wanted it to and i was not taking it well, getting very angry and upset so easily. Soon i went to a therapist who gave me antidepressants. a few days of taking the antidepressants i started to get the shakes from it and i made a trip to the ER. (Note i was still on the opiates at this time) i was given valium to stop the shaking but it intensified it and i had a seizure and spent 8 days in a hospital bed without moving. After i woke up (i blacked out from the seizure) i had a very hard time speaking and to this day i still have trouble speaking, slurring my words most of the time. oddly enough it never affected me mentally that i came close to death and had permanent "scar" from it. By the start of tenth grade i had three different diagnosis for my foot and still on painkillers. i wasnt allowed to play football which crushed me so much watching from the bleachers. Surely next year will be different. then on December 21, 2013 i believe this was my worst night ever. It was the school christmas dance that i was at with my girlfriend of about 18 months when my friend asked me at dinner if i was high. i said no and that i stopped taking my pills because i did not want to be addicted. my girlfriend hated drugs and got very mad at me and thought i was on drugs. this set off a very bad mood swing for me and i ended up flipping out and punching my friend for "ruining" my relationship. I punched him so hard that i broke my hand and really hurt him. I was handcuffed by police and i was freaking out screaming and crying begging for everything to be ok but i was kicked out, fined, suspended from school, single, and lost many friends. It put a lot of stress on me and i got very depressed so i started using my pills again, but this time for recreational use. Within a few months i was completely addicted to painkillers and i didnt care because it got rid of the physical and emotional pain. Then in March i got an official diagnosis for my foot. It was a comlpetely torn postterior tibal tendon and an almost torn peroneus logus tendon. On April 22, 2014 I had a surgery that last nearly 3 hours and was said to fix my ankle and reduce pain by up to 80%. after my surgery i was sitting on my couch for three straight months, only getting up to go to the bathroom. Although my foot was 'fixed' i was still addicted to pain pills throughout the summer and up to about mid December i was using several times a day. I decided to get clean, so i tried and was for a month then relapsed for a weeks then was clean again. i used several times here and there but never fully addicted again since December. However, it still isnt good at all for me because im now looking for answers for my back pain that started with my foot in 9th grade. At the beginning of February, a doctor thought i might have cancer in my spine with the pain i was describing and, thank god, my scan showed that i was clean. As of my most recent doctor visit, we think i may have a compressed spine, but dont know for sure because i havent had any trauma to my back. I dont know how my life got so f***ed up in the recent years. I mean it really sucks to know that i am a drug addict and im not even out of highschool yet. I thought i would be able to play football next year but my career is over as my first doctor had said and it hurts me deeply to watch football and think i could be one of those players on the screen. It hurts me a lot knowing how much different my life could have been right now if i never injured my foot. I do have to say though, joining FA has been one of the greatest things that happened to me in that time period and im glad i can know so many different people of different ages and ethnicities, so thank you guys and gals so much for that. P.s. sorry that is so long and thank you if you read it all. I dont usually tell people my story but i feel so alone at the moment and i often have trouble explaining how i feel..so ya.. /awkward
  24. Going to work until 1 a.m. just to go back at 10 a.m. -_-

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