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The older faces remember me and the new ones haven't a clue. That is why I am writing this. To let old friends know where I have been
and the new ones to get to know me.
I joined FA quite a few years back and loved it here. The most fun I had ever had. I met so many new people and had a blast gaming with them.
After a while, I had a few heart attacks, but then had a massive heart attack. I ended up having an emergency quadruple bypass.
I didn't let it stop me though, I tried to hang out and play as much as I could.
But not long after, I was diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure (CHF) and my health crashed.
I was already dealing with extensive nerve damage and this put everything over the top.
For those of you who do not know, CHF causes fluid to build around your heart and in that process your heart struggles as it beats and
the fluid build up causes your lungs to also fill which makes it hard to breathe and in turn causes things like, Upper Respiratory Infection, Flu, Pneumonia and so on.
Because of this, I took time off from gaming and focused on my family.
My health continued to go south but at the same time, I had my first 2 grandchildren. They changed my life, caused me to want to live and I decided
from then on out, I would do whatever it took to live and see them grow up.
Right in the middle of all this I had another heart attack, I had a 90% blockage and as I was having the heart attack, it caused me to have a stroke.
I spent quite some time in the hospital trying to get better and only about 3 or 4 weeks ago, I got out.
I decided I would enjoy my grandchildren and my favorite past time, playing games.
Well, that is what brought me back around here. I decided, I would come and try to have some fun with my old friends and hopefully make a few new ones.
I don't know how long I have left, or what God has in store for me, but I plan on living life as full as I can, doing the things that make me happy.
I will be around as much as I can and try to help out where I am able. It feels good to be home and hopefully I will be able to stick around this time.
Hey all. I know it's been awhile. Sorry if any of you were worried about me. I guess I needed some time to figure some things out, and what exactly I needed in my life. This year has been pretty rough. Everything decided to go almost as horrible as possible, and I lost sight of the progress I've made in light of that, and needed to think. Also, I'm avoiding modern war-games at the moment because they are a little to close to home while I'm working with veteran's affairs here in Canada to get treatment. I really dislike Facebook now, and a lot of my socializing was here. I guess i ended up becoming a hermit for a while there with all the isolation. There was and is still so much going on, it's tough to keep everything straight. This year is definitely a test for me. I'm not sure why I'm telling you guys all this, exactly, but it feels good. I guess I trust you. Anyway, in an effort to avoid getting too deep, I'll wrap this up. I just wanted to clarify any misconceptions, and share a bit.
Ps. I have 149 unread notifications O_o
That's all for now,
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114: Been pulled from the front for a while. Apparently keeping someone on the offensive for a couple years straight is a bad idea.
115: Nothing much to say about today. The sun did what it does, which is take blooming forever to cross the sky. Can't wait until I can Radio again.
116: Snuck into the supplies depot to have a chat with Gus.
117: Was arrested for sneaking into the supply depot, having a trial tomorrow.
118: They found me guilty of trespassing but not of theft (Since I took nothing), had a pay cut.
119: Joke Machine broke today, nothing more to say.
120: My ability to perform is in question. Apparently talking to a Radio is weird. I see people do it all the time. Sometimes it replies back!
121: Was playing some sort of card game with the lads when a Panzerfaust shot flew into the middle of the camp, a foot from me. Somehow I survived along with everyone else. Thank my lucky Panzerfaust Magnet.
122: Decided to write a book alongside the diary. Not sure if it will get anywhere. The lads certainly don't think it will.
123: Still on reserve duty. Managed to convince the higher ups to let me wear Gus about.
124: Disaster struck today, I dropped my tea. Been given time to mourn.
125: Still in mourning.
126: Recovered from the tragedy that struck. Gus provided comfort the entire way through, some people gave me weird looks.
127: Been reported to HR by an assault with a radio for being "of my rocker". They're going to have an official examination.
128: Saw the Ghost of Steven Foster, and this is what I told him as I gazed into his eyes: Shove off, I'm in the middle of a medical examination.
129: Been pulled from the fighting fully, is this where my journey ends?
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This is an interview with =F|A='s resident chicken, CheepHeep. He's pretty boring, but I decided to post this anyway because he took like 5 minutes to answer every damn question.
1. What's your greatest fear?
I definitely have a few fears, most of which are not likely to happen. The most realistic fear I have is probably being alone. Not physically alone but for instance, I'm a pretty social person, I like to connect with people and share my story and i guess i just worry sometimes that one day I'll have nobody to tell it to or nobody I could trust to share things with. But for real though, KFC is my greatest fear
2. What's your biggest pet peeve?
3. What's your favorite flavor of Skittle?
4. Celebrity crush?
5. Favorite TV series?
oh god....theres so many, I can't pick. So many people have asked me what my favourite show, movie or song is. I enjoy almost everything which makes it hard for me to have a favourite
6. If you were the dictator of ET, what change would you make?
Hmmm I like ET the way it is, I wouldn't change it. There's always going to things to complain about but I honestly love ET and wouldn't risk changing the game because even the bits you hate make the game what it is.
7. If you had to get a tattoo on your butt, what would it be of?
Your mum. JK. I don't really like tattoos but if i had to get one, I'd get a small dot on my upper left cheek so it matches the small birth mark I have on the other.
8. Invisibility or the ability to fly?
Invisibility, I'm a chicken, I can already fly or at least suspend myself in the air for a long period of time
9. Are you doing no-shave November?
Well I'm not shaving but I am going to trim, does that qualify?
10. I know you love basketball. Where do you stand on the LeBron vs Michael Jordan argument?
Neutral. I love playing the sport not watching other people play it. I do occasionally watch it here and there but only to learn from professionals. I don't worship celebs
11. Favorite dessert?
If we are talking about ice cream, my favourite flavour is Mint Choc-chip. So gooooood and refreshing. I love cheesecake too but nothing toO over-the-top because too much sweetness makes me feel sick.
12. What's one fictional world - from books, TV shows, movies, etc., that you would enjoy living in?
Your mum. JK. OOO Mass Effect would be cool.
13. Do you agree that Harry Potter was a huge a**h**** and probably the least exciting character in the entire series? Like, he spent seven years terrorizing his friends with his own problems, ya know? They had their own shit going on and here comes Harry f***ing Potter just f***ing shit up left and right? They had lives, too. They all had lives, Harry. IT’S NOT ALL ABOUT YOU.
Well no because the books are called HARRY POTTER so he's the focal point. ITS NOT CALLED RONALD WEASELY AND THE ATTACK OF THE GINGERS
14. What do you do when a baby just stares at you in public? Like, doesn’t even blink, just maintains intense, aggressive eye contact with their dumb baby face.
I go cross-eyed and make stupid faces until they laugh or cry, then look away just in time so the parents dont catch me making them think that they're child is bonkers.
15. On average, how many times a week do you hurt yourself trying to dance in the shower?
0. I don't dance in the shower. Who the heck does that?
The following is an interview with a superstar regular of ET Jay 1, Humpty. I met him there one evening in late 2017 and I've gotten to know the guy more and more. And it's all good things You can find him creeping the forum or using discord. Very welcoming dude who's full of good vibes. Hope you can get to know him a little from this interview. I was crackin' up!
When did you first start playing on ET FA servers?
I came back to ET and found your servers about 2 years ago. Before that it had been over a decade since i had played. A long winter!!
Were you ever in a gaming clan?
I have been in a few clans; =PSG= (which stands for Paper Street Gestapo, a reference to Fight Club) , S.S. Shit-Storm and =POW= PrisonersOfWar
What FA server is the most fun?
Jay 1 is my most frequently visited.
Where are you from?
Born in Wisconsin and live in Portland,OR
What is something special about you?
I can cook like Walter White!!
Is the world better or worse than it was 50 years ago?
Well I wasn't around yet!! Neeeurrrro.......but I imagine it is better now because I am here!
What’s the perfect date?
One that ends with breakfast.
Are you a dad?
What’s your dream car?
A dumptruck filled with gold bars!
What do you do for living?
I am a traveling salesman, I sell fake wood to RV manufacturers.
What do you like to do in your spare time (besides gaming)?
I enjoy going out with friends and family
What are you most proud of?
That I am better at admitting when I am wrong.
What do you hope to achieve everyday?
11pm the night before: "Greatness!!" , the morning of: "f*** you where's my coffee!!!"
Ever kiss a dude?
Haven't found the right man yet!
What is your greatest fear?
Who’s your role-model?
Bruce Lee of course!
What’s your favorite album or song?
Frank Sinatra - Reprise "The Very Good Years"
What's the last book you read?
A Clive Cussler book I'm sure
What's the best movie you've seen? Series?
The Big Lebowski and the first season of True Detective.
What’s your favorite dessert?
What place has the best fries?
Red Robin with the campfire sauce.
BBQ Ribs or steak?
Favorite choice of alcohol?
Any drug use we should know about?
What do you want to know?
Do you know a good joke?
How many Vietnam vets does it take to change a lightbulb? You dont know maaaaan!!!!! You weren't there!!!!!
Choose: Be deaf or be blind?
If you were an animal, which one would you want to be and why?
A Portuguese Man Of War
If you could choose one superhero power, what would it be?
Have you ever been in love?
Have you traveled? If so, what’s your favorite destination?
I like San Francisco if I couldn't live in Oregon.
Tell us about you’re most embarrassing moment.
I got drunk and pissed my pants and my buddys daughter sat in my lap......
Have you met in person, FA/non FA players?
Vixen, Sleepy and Boozer
Choose to Kill, F*&$, Marry, Cuddle, Sidekick?…Vixen, Elk, Sleepy, Tony, Insomnia
Insomnia, Vixen, Sleepy, Tony, Elk
What a catch, ain't he?! btw...there's a photo of him in the forum somewhere.
- When did you first start playing on ET FA servers?
Asus RT-AC66U router review
Amazon.com price (90 USD)
Amazon.co.uk price (105 GBP)
Amazon.de (125 Euro)
Dual-band, 802.11ac, up to 1750Mbps
AiRadar intelligently strengthens wireless connections via high-powered amplification and beam-forming
4x gigabit ethernet LAN ports
2x USB 2.0 ports
2.4GHz or 5.0GHz (can be active at the same time)
Advanced cooling (whatever that means)
The specs are pretty good, especially considering this is not a new (2018) router. Most people now would (rightfully so) expect USB 3.0. The "advanced cooling" sounds like a gimmick or something every router company could say. However I have noticed that it does not get as hot compared to routers I've previously owned (like the Cisco-Linksys E4200). I have not had issues with this router when it comes to heat, and rarely have to restart it.
Speed wise it is able to handle whatever I do. Gaming and streaming netflix works with no problems, even with more than one person on the router.
Connection with Chromecast works great. It may rarely loose connection but usually that is a problem with the chromecast, and only sometimes requires a router restart.
I've owned this router since 2013 and see no point in replacing it. It has not noticeably degraded since then. The only reason I could see upgrading would be to attach a hard drive to it (since this one is only usb 2.0) or maybe to find one that has better web applications. This Asus supports the cloud applications that Asus has, but I haven't been impressed by them and haven't found a good use for them.
A huge problem with this router is that when you attach a hard drive, the CPU goes to 100% constant. I remember trying it a few years ago and at the time there was no fix for it. I haven't checked, but I doubt that there is a fix right now.
Adding a VPN directly on the router is not supported with the default firmware. To do this you need to use other router software like DD-WRT. The one I currently use can be found here. DD-WRT allows you to add a VPN to your router and turn it on/off whenever you want. It supports OpenVPN, PPTP, and TOR.
VPN that I use is called Private Internet Access (PIA).
After many hours of thought, I have come to the conclusion that it is time for me to step away as a member of this clan. There have been some personal things I've been dealing with that take precedence and the lack of time I have set aside for the clan isn't fair to the community as a whole. As of today I hereby retract my membership and wish you all happy gaming and further growth as a clan.
Hello Everyone, how are you all. Many of you know me but for new folks or to those who dont know me , My name is Mr.Karizmatic ( RL : Abdul Mufeed ) . i am from INDIA ( Hyderabad) yeah yeah our biryani is famous. Well i was meaning to write a blog from soo soo long time , finally after my master plato started the trend ,i thought i shall share some of my life situation and stuff.
First of all BIG thanks to all the people who supported me in everything and helped me become staff.
After becoming staff, i know alot of you havnt seen much of me, that is because i was super busy with my RL job, i am a Mechanical Engineer . I have moved forward in a field called HVAC ( heating ventilation and Air Conditioning ) it is a branch of mechanical engineering. I started my job in september of 2017 and it was going great, i was doing small projects where i have to design , Calculate how much Cool air a room needs , by looking into each criteria . we calculate how much heat a room is getting from outside and inside and then we design to eradicate that heat and keep the temperature at a Human comfort level. and than we shall decide what duct size we need to move the airflow from one place to another at what velocity and at what friction level . etc... And many more things are there, i wont bore u guys.
So basically 2 months back we got 2 big projects , and the client is one of the biggest clients in INDIA . So we got 2 projects from them 1 is in Bangalore( Ground to 5th floor) and other is in Delhi(Ground to 6 floors). We started working on both projects simultaneously. We have to do heatload calculations,duct designing,duct routing,diffuser placement,All mechanical equipment placements etc etc. So i was working from past 45 days for almost 12-15 hours everyday, sometimes i worked for 30hrs too. I am not complaining cause i was learning soo much . That is the reason i wasnt available much on forums or servers, and i was lacking in INS and DOI work too, but finally 1 project banglore project is almost done we have designed and Revit modelling is also over. Delhi project is also going on. Finally i am starting to have more free time and i can come home in actual office hours. This was the reason i wasnt much active and wasnt been around lately. But i am back and shall be working more as a STAFF with my responsiblities and everything. I am still learning.
Now for DOI and INS , this is one of the closest things to me , i have been working on this both games from past 7-8 months i think or more. And i think ( i maybe wrong or 100% right ) alot of them thinks that i alone call the shots and dont listen to anyone or doesnt care about feedback etc. This is 100% wrong. There are leaders above me whom i discuss and ask there permissions, And Including DD. I never took any decision on my own, So plz plz dont think that they gave me the access and now i am behaving like a god that i have all the access of both games and i am not listening, DD and leaders can take the access from me easily with in a second. I have never broken there trust and i never will. ANd to all the DOI and INS or any memeber or regular in this clan plz plz if u have anything to say to me plz let me know, i know i have done alot of mistakes , i m not perfect , but i m ready to learn from my mistakes and not repeat them. i am not sooo good at communication and my english isnt that good so alot of time i come out as a rude person. But i am trying on that and working on it. Hope those who dislike me or thought some bad stuff we can start over again and work together.
I am always always open for suggestion and everything. My PM or Discord is always open , even on steam too. IF u want to help plz plz come forward, i always need helping hands, don't wait for me to ask, cause i dont know who can do what and who don't. But if you know stuff and wants to help doesn't matter if it is small or big , just let me know or post on forums, together we can make INS and DOI an awesome #1 servers and by that F|A will be on TOP always. We all are F|Amily . Again i want to apologies if i ever disrespected u guys or anything.
Lets work together and make this clan a better place and to keep this clan alive for many many years to come.
Fear of Failure
Failure, something many fear. Weather it be in the weight room, at work, college, anything. This is what it has come to in 2018, you give something a try, fail and just say "I can't do it"? Is that supposed to be some excuse? You don't simply walk away from the challenges you are faced with in life, you plant your feet into the ground and keep moving forward. For example, we did Power Clean Max lift in weight room yesterday. One small skinny kid that had joined our group decided he wanted to just do 95 freakin' pounds for all the sets, let his low standards get the best of him. I said "Hell no", threw on more weight and told him to get his ass back up to the bar. More or less, he hit a new max weight. Not that it was much weight or anything, but he still did it. He was afraid of failing, so he took the easy way out. Meanwhile, me and my friend who were already 20 pounds into a new max lift, kept adding weight until we failed more than 3 times. I was reppin', seeing everyone almost snapping their wrists around me, it did not phase me at all. I was in a zone, a place where I simply don't give a damn. I was not phased when I sat in the face of failure, repping more weight than I ever had before. I was focused on the task at hand, and was ready for what I was facing. Hell, when I added more and more weight on that bar, I felt like I could do anything.
So, are you going to let life lay you flat on your ass, or will you get up and finish strong?
Something many people can't do these days. Lock in, settle on their goals for the future. You see, people let the smallest distractions keep them from reaching their all time best in the classroom, weight room, or on the football field. Thinking about what others think of you, worrying about what is to come in the future, just focus for once. Keep the negatives out of your head, and grind. Trust me, it reflects on Friday nights when you go out on that football field and represent your town. Are you going to forget a call last moment, 5 yards away from the end zone? That's on you. Going to parties on the weekend, doing drugs and alcohol, when you should be studying? Is that truly how you want to live your life? Be a screw up now, and pay for it later? Excel on the football field, but can't get into a college because your GPA is total crap? Does not sound fun now, does it?
Lock in, focus up. Your future depends on it.
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It's been a long time and I haven't shared any new updates since a while. Sometimes, I feel it's just 2008 and we just started our community but when I see the calendar, it's 2018. When we started while back it was just me, Rainier, Joe, FEM, yoyo and medic. Rest others followed over the period of time. Medic was the one who pursued me big time, to add COD4 servers when COD4 was at peak. Then we become super popular in COD4 in top 5 and over the period of time, server activity declined. My this year goal is to make COD4 popular again slowly with new server settings and bring some oldies back for fun. I still can't believe Anique, you are still around. Even V!per came back from FAG days.
I still can't believe almost 10 years have passed by. 10 years is a long time. I was single, working, running community during free time and enjoying my free life. It used to be really fun time and it still is. But let's be honest, oldies are like your first love in life. You never forget them no matter what. I just wish Rainier, Joe, Medic and others would get active again. I kinda miss them sometimes. I am glad yoyo is still around and kicking, irrespective to our personal differences while back. But hey it's all history and I look forward each day towards rising sun!
I never for even once thought I will get to see 2018 with =F|A=. I had some rough time in my life during 2010-2013 and lot's of people helped me out. It would really hurt when I have to say, sorry guys, we are closing our community because of less donations, less peeps, less server activity. I get it, whatever comes in existence has to expire. But then every year, I say to myself, God no not this year, one year more. I would hate to see not talking to all of you.
We will be soon looking to promote some of our new members to help out oldies like me and fill in the shoes so that they can continue legacy of =F|A=. Does that mean, I am going inactive? No not at all. I will be around and kicking. In fact, I have started advertising about our website on COC, COR, COD4, ET, Insurgency and DOI forums to get more new players to our community. This community has given me so much, that I can't forget.
For once, I wish, I can go on lunch with all the members but alas, we humans are dreamers and that's what keep us alive. We are nothing but emotional animals, looking for some love from our friends and family. In this case =F|A= has been my first baby, friends and family!
I for one, thank you to all of you for being so nice to me over all the years. From members to staff, I am lucky enough to find friends who came out for rescue when I needed the help most.
I will see you all tomorrow. Have a nice weekend ladies & gentleman!
An international gaming clan... What's that? Instead of with friends, you play with virtual strangers with whom you can't communicate? No no no no no. Instead of friends you already have, you play with people you have not yet met. Those guys are flesh and blood just like you and when you wanna meet them, guess what? You can!
In this blog entry I'll tell you the story of how this gaming clan made me meet with total strangers, delivered me a bright yellow "F|A Clan Co-Leader" T-shirt and made me invite a guy in my home who used to kill me several times a day on the server.
First there's Hamburg. How do you set up a real life meeting? It's simple. You make a topic on the forums, make a poll about the meeting place and date, someone books a hotel and... You meet there.
Or do you now? Our good friend Raziel was the one booking the hotel, you see. And this nice mister had disappeared from our good earth. So we ended up looking for a new hotel for Destiny and Guardian and I ended up at the strangest camping site I have ever encountered (there was no grass for the tents, but stones).
Once we all found a place to sleep, Kowalski was ready to show us the city of Hamburg. We ate some weird fish burgers at the port, took some pictures for the rest of the clan and ate ice cream, bathing in the sun. It was all really fun. My only complaint was that DJ, Destiny, Kowalski nor Guardian were pretty girls but eh... You can't have everything! DJ bought us cookies and this is also where DJ told me I was promoted to co-leader! Quite strange hearing about clan stuff from a real life DJ :p. As if that ain't enough for the strangeness, I received a yellow "F|A Clan Co-Leader" T-shirt in my letterbox a few days later. How often do you get those from your other friends, huh?!
At night we went for drinks. We took some extra beers to the port and stayed there talking until 4 am. What do gamers talk about? Yeah, sure. Games. Clan gossip. But also politics (it's allowed on those meetings!), life, girls,... The advantage about having no girls in the company is... You can talk about them.
When Guardian and Destiny went home I stayed a little longer to visit the Schanzenviertel with Kowalski. It's a really cool "slum" (see picture). Last year I returned him the favor and showed him Ghent. I have a feeling we may meet again.
Eh, I can't tell you everything in one blog entry so you'll have to hear about the other international encounter in the next part
Just wanted to let everyone know my status. Foot is totally screwed. I've been in and out of the hospital because of infections in it. They can't seem to get it under control. Just when we think its gone away it comes back. But anyways haven't been able to play in a while I'm really sorry about that. Hope to be on this week.
So, i dont know if anybody will read this but here i go. As i talked about in my previous blog, I used to be addicted to pain pills due to a long lasting injury that i got hooked on just from being on them for so long and eventually self medicating for my mood swings. But as of today, i am one year and one month clean and to me that is a HUGE milestone. Since i got clean, i took up working out to occupy my time and i have seen some tremendous gains. When i started working out I weighed a measly 138 pounds and standing 6 foot 1 inch tall. I put my whole self into working out and gained almost 30 pounds in three months which was great to me. It has changed my life for the better in ways i couldn't have even imagined and i cant see myself not exercising and taking health important. Not only have i grown physically but i also grown mentally that has made me a better person. As of right now i weigh 164 pounds and im trying to stay around there because i pole vault with 165 pound pole and i just feel good using that pole and if i gained more weight, moving me to a heavier pole, i feel i wouldnt do as well as i am right now (probably just a mental thing though). Another thing is before i started lifting was that girls never really paid much attention to me, i guess because of drugs and i was really skinny but now that i have some weight to me, they seem interested. Weird right? (lol) The strange thing is however, i feel like no woman is worth my time just because of my attitude towards life is drastically different than most people my age and they just wont work well with me. I have been talking to this girl for a while now that i feel has been worth my time and i can definitely see myself with this woman long term, but there is big problem with our situation. When we started talking, she just got out of a year long relationship a month before and she recently told me that she feels as if we jumped into things too quick, which we kinda did. Not only that but we are graduating next month and i will be going to a college thats about 3.5 hours away and she is staying home to attend a local college. We talked about everything and we decided its probably best to not start a relationship just to have it ruined by distance and not being able to see each other often. I said we could try to work it out but she just did not want to get in another relationship and have her feelings hurt in the end, which i completely understand but it just hurts so damn much. I felt like i found someone that can be there for me and support me through everything and vice verse but it just isnt working out how i would like it. I guess you can say that its depressing me a little and i've been in a funk since we decided that. As i mentioned before i am senior in high school and a graduation requirement is senior project which i have been finishing up in the past few months and it has been placing a huge amount of stress on me. Tomorrow however, I give my presentation on it, giving a 15 minute speech in front of panel of judges who basically decide my fate, which as you can imagine is placing a lot of stress on me but i will feel relieved after its all over. With all this stuff that is happening and things that are not going how i would like it really suck, I just gotta keep on moving forward. But hey, thats life.
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when I sleep I get sometimes difficult from my
sleep do not know how it comes.
when I dream I often dream about the environment
where I am, I'll do as I'm awake.
but is not that the felon is when I try to get awake
always come back to the same place.
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2015 for me, was probably the craziest year I have had in the 42 years I have been on this planet. As some may or may not have noticed, I was absent most of last year. This was due to a massive heart attack and the subsequent quadruple bypass surgery. Well I was fortunate enough to beat that monster and survive with quite a long recovery. I'm not sure of the time table, but sometime during recovery I am diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure. For those of you who don't know what that really means here is a link to kind of describe http://www.webmd.com/heart-disease/guide-heart-failure
So with all the Dr. appointments, and more than anything, my failing health, I spent far less time on the forums and servers last year. I took almost all of last year to get a grip on my situation, even moving back closer to my family, realizing your mortality has a way of bringing you home. It took me a while to come to grips with everything and more than likely don't have enough of a grip as I should.
I tried to focus more on friends and family than I had, spending more time in real life than with gaming, plus staying well long enough to get through COD match was an issue. Sitting behind my desk required more energy than I had at the time. It wasn't that I didn't want to be here with everyone, I just didn't have the strength to do so.
A couple months ago I started some new meds, a new diet and also found out that the reason I was unable to control my diabetes was because I was insulin resistant. I didn't even think such a thing was possible. My body wasn't absorbing the insulin I was taking, so my Endocrinologist put me on a new med that helps my body absorb the insulin and finally I am seeing good numbers.
With these new meds for my diabetes, neuropathy and CHF (Also diet and exercise) I started to feel better, and become more active. Things have been better the past couple of months, I have gotten some gaming under my belt and been on the forums again. I have tried a few times in the recent past, but was unable to maintain because of my health, but I hope things are different this time.
I have missed everyone here greatly, and missed all the fun on the servers and I hope for now I am able to continue to be a part of this awesome community for as long as possible. I have made some incredible friends here and I hope to make more.
Hopefully 2016 will be a much better year, so far so good
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So the planetary distress signal has been sent out. Help is on the way.
We as a species have to stop this madness which we see each day on the local and nightly news. Wish to talk more about the transformers. All that comes to mind is how is this possible in real life. Is there something at hoover dam we don't know about? How much technology is being hidden from the public view? Corporate entities are ripping us off. The environment happens to be crumbling, and we all do is produce aluminum and oil. The middle east is being pampered silly especially Saudi Arabia. Switching to renewable energy sources would be the smart thing to do. Did Han Solo Shoot first? And that brings us to all of the awkward editing by LucasFilm of episodes 4-6.
Wandering through Evermore Maze. Trying Escape the Abyss.
Darth SkyWalker, teacher of the SkyWalkers
An Assassin's Joy
It's the crimson serenade of screams,
neighbors woken from sweet dreams,
the pouring life from open veins,
the deathly screams of lethal pains,
It's the cry for mercy in the night,
that keeps an assassin's heart alight,
the unwritten rules that have been laid,
like live by the sword die by the blade,
It's the thrill of the chase,
how their victim's hearts race,
the success of the kill,
on a night deadly still,
an assassin's joy comes from your pain,
for you are a toy until you are slain,
It's a twisted pleasure for a twisted mind,
an assassins joy is far from kind
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Ok so it's a great time to be a CS fan. Prolly the biggest tournament of the year is here. ESL One cologne starts today! If you never watched it before, then you should definitly watch now. Not just as a player to learn, but even if you dont care much about cs you should watch. Just to hear the crowds go wild when a sick play happened is awesome.
Its gunna be a fun 4 days
My pray here.
Some know i moved to Australia from Estonia and nowdays i live here. Before that i had couple of challenges to stay here for longer.
So i had to make my second year visa to revive my another year to stay in Australia. do get it i had to make reginal work for that.( 88 days= 3 month)
I took my bag and living and head to small town called Hyden Western Australia. 370km from Perth City. small country town.
Where i was working acctually 5 month and wasn't so bad where i heard before. In time where i worked we went in the pub after work, friends had couple beers there.
I knew Couple local there and got new friends. Afther friend finishing beers we head back home to rest and be fresh for another workday.
On the way when i was driving home i saw girl who i knew. she where look very drunk and not felt good. ( i was clear cause i was driving.) Did not drink any drinks what contains alchol.
So i turn around and head to her to ask those she need lift home or help. After i made turn there was car on wrong way trafic. wow i was suprised was thinking what is happening....??? He was driveing foward and i had revers. After i stop and one guy came out the car and sayd " Leave her alone " meh I asked "what i did?"
He sayd:"her boyfriend had car crash few moth ago and he died."
I where wondering,
I did not know about this because she did not told me about it. She seemed to me happie and nothing suspicious.
My friend asked about the blocking the road and keep driving foward our way. My friend where very angry but i was relaxe and keept calm.
When i turn around my head to say my friends to shut up and calm down i got punch in my face. Straight away my friend came in the fight and gave him few hit back. I step few step back where thinked what is happening GOD!
Afther everyone calm down we went home and talk about it on balcony front of the house where we temporarily was living.
Everyone was suprised what happening in this night. My friend where nice people and where not agressive personality.
It wasn't end of this night. One car came to our house. I was like "comon what now" they where first guy friends.
Two adult came out about 40 year old and where saying many bad things. Sayd "we need to leave from town we are not welcome there".
After talking with them around 30min they start being nice.
We finish around 11:00 Pm and in the end all was happie.
Fairy next day i spoke with girl and her friends and asked who is this guy and what he wanted.
Girl sayd:" This guy is This town bad boy and doing bad things such as weed, drink doing alot different drugs ect.
Same is with hes friends
In the end i head back after couple of month to Perth city and still here:)
Karma will come after hiim one day And be careful if you are around country side town they are sometime dangerous. :/
There is one cool rock too.
As most of you may know, I recently had another heart attack, and as a result ended up going through a quadruple bypass surgery. It was crazy but I survived. So I figured I would post this blog to give a bit more detailed idea of how it all went down..
I Had been having some chest pains through basically all of march, but that was nothing unusual considering I had had a couple of heart attacks in 2011, and even some stents. The reason I didn't worry as much was, as soon as a rested for a moment the pain would go away, and all went back to normal again.
Well early on the 3rd of April we were having a downpour here where I live, and the water was up really high. Normally I wouldn't think much of it, but considering all the flooding we had been having I was keeping an eye on it. As the water rose I decided I would walk out to the creek and have a look, so my lady and I put our shoes on and headed out. By the time we got to the water, which was well less than 1/4 mile from my house, I was out of breath and having bad chest pains. Again I caught my breath, and everything seemed to be okay. We decided we would come back to the house, jump into the suv and go for a drive, and check out how high the water was in other places. Once we walked back to the car, I had to run in the house to get the keys. My chest was hurting again, so I sat down to catch my breath, but this time the pain did not leave, and I couldn't catch my breath, which made me more than nervous.
I walked back out with the keys and told Teresa that I thought we should goto the ER and have this checked out. I still didn't think it was anything serious, but I can't lie, it was worrying me.
We get to the ER, and because of my history they brought me straight back. After an EKG, and the usual things you do to check for heart issues, my Cardiologist who happen to be there recommended a heart cath. For those of you who do not know what that is, They put you on this table, give you some goofy drugs and then run a wire through your arteries and look for blockages, the goal being to find them, place a stent and keep the blood flowing through my body.
Well turns out the heart catch did more than find a simple blockage, it found 3 100% closed off and 1 that was 99% so they realized indeed I was having a heart attack, and a massive one at that.
The doc informed me of what he found, and informed me that I had to undergo surgery. By the time we had gotten to this point, it was Saturday the 4th, and the surgeon that should have been there had taken a vacation, so we had to wait for another to arrive. They scheduled my surgery for 9am Sunday morning, which can give you way to much time to think about having your chest cracked open, fortunately because of the pain, the kept me doped up on morphine and painkillers.
Sunday morning rolled around, they put me under and went to work. It only lasted around 5 hours, and then I was out and straight into recovery, which was pretty sucky because, if your oxygen levels aren't right, even though you may be breathing on your own, the keep the tubes ran down your throat. Now it was bad enough that they had all sorts of tubes stuck in my chest, and a pump in my leg to keep blood flowing, but now I was awake with a giant tube in my throat, which prevented me from talking, or drinking anything at all, not to mention that I constantly felt like I was suffocating. I understood that I was breathing, but the machine was doing it for me, and let me tell you, nothing can ever feel more suffocating.
Later that evening they started taking all the tubes out of my chest, and out of my throat, which was awesome no matter how bad it hurt when they did it, and man did it hurt.
I stayed in the hospital a few more days and they were amazed at how fast I was recovering, so they decided I could come home, which I was far far beyond excited hehe. I have been home for a week or so, not sure on the timeline as I have been on painkillers this whole time, all I know is I am home, and alive, both of which almost never happened. The Doc said I was very ill when I came in, and told me it was more than a miracle that I was alive, and that is awesome and the scariest thing at the same time.
I am doing pretty good atm, I stay tired and am unbelievably sore which is to be expected, I mean, they did saw through my chest bone, crack it open and work on me hehe..
Anyway, I am alive and getting better, and maybe soon can rejoin FA on a regular basis, heck, I even got some COD in today, and man did it feel good..
I am posting these pics just because I think you can see where I was to what I became.. I am so thankful to be alive, and so thankful to have all of you my friends here..
This pic is right before I went in for the heart catch, and I think you can tell, I didn't seem all to worried hehe
This pic is after I had all my tubes removed after the surgery, I think you can see here what a toll it took on me, not to mention the awesome scar haha.
With all that being said, I am thankful for being alive, for all my friends and family, and I truly do love everyone of you!
Update 25 March 2015: Added links to download Microsoft .NET Framework 4.5.1 which is required to run ETManager. Furthermore, I am not sure if it is a bug with my Windows 10 Professional Technical Preview Virtual Machine but ETManager 126.96.36.199 Alpha does not seem to be able to launch after installation even with Microsoft .NET Framework 4.5.1 installed. Though in my main computer running Windows 7 Professional, ETManager runs fine. If anyone is experiencing issues running ETManager 188.8.131.52 Alpha even with Microsoft .NET Framework 4.5.1 installed, please do not be afraid to contact me via the comments section or through private message. I will look into the issue and try my best to resolve it. Thank you. Sorry for any inconvenience caused.
Before reading the entry below, if you don't know what ETManager is please refer to this entry: Test Development. It is also important to note that this is not an advertisement. I did not publish this entry to show off or anything else. I am sharing my work with you all so that we can all enjoy Wolfenstein: Enemy Territory together. You can think of it as my contribution to Wolfenstein: Enemy Territory and Fearless Assassins for their fun ET Servers. Thank you.
I know it has been more than a week since I posted my last entry with regards to ETManager, that was because over the past few days I have been spending countless hours trying to get ETManager Version 184.108.40.206 Alpha ready and usable for the general public. It took longer than I expected as each time when I was about to release it, during testing, I would discover new bugs and have to quickly fix it. There were some bugs that were really difficult for me to fix which is possibly due to my inexperience. Fortunately, after thinking through many different methods and trying many different alternatives, I am happy to say I have finally finish ETManager Version 220.127.116.11 Alpha. Though it currently only has basic features and may be incomparable to ET Starter Pro at the moment, however, I will try my best to regularly update ETManager and put in all the ideas which I have for ETManager into a finished product. (You can refer to the Test Development Entry for a sneak peak of ETManager and some of the ideas which I plan to implement.)
Features in ETManager Version 18.104.22.168 Alpha:
For players who are planning to play ET you can...
Download Wolfenstein: Enemy Territory directly from ETManager and install it (PunkBuster and ETKey Generator are included).
For players who already have ET installed you can...
Run PunkBuster Tool and ETKey Generator to check if you have PunkBuster and ETKey installed and install it if you don't have them.
Connect to your favourite ET Servers directly from ETManager.
View the status of your favourite ET Servers courtesy of et.trackbase.net
Automatically patch your ET Version to either 2.55, 2.56, 2.60, 2.60b.
Delete existing etkey and auto request and generate new etkey.
Start ET Minimiser.
Currently, the default local server list has 3 Fearless Assassin Servers. I just picked 3 Fearless Assassin Servers randomly for testing purposes. You can edit it if you want.
Auto check for updates for ETManager.
Known issues in ETManager Version 22.214.171.124 Alpha:
ETManager's auto updater does not auto install updates for ETManager and instead points to my development website which has not been updated for a long time and does not have any download links for ETManager. (However, it will still notify you if a new version of ETManager is available.)
Initial ET Configuration Page is not coded yet. (You can just click the Next button to skip it.)
Errors are not displayed properly yet and there is no error reporting system as of now. (You can just comment below or private message me if you encounter any errors and I will try my best to fix it.)
Database System and Repository System are not working yet. Please use "Local" in the meantime.
I will post this when I have the time as it is a long list. Sorry for any inconvenience caused.
Those are the features and known issues I can think of as of now, I may have missed some and I am sorry if I did.
With regards to documentation, I will create an ETManager documentation when I have the time. I plan to finish coding more features first especially the repository system before creating the documentation since the repository system requires some explaining to server administrators on how it actually works and how to set it up.
As for my development website, though my forum profile and in ETManager both stated my website link, it is important to note that my website has not been updated for a long time due to most of my free time being spend on ETManager. I will update it when I have the time.
Note: The reason why ETManager is currently limited in features is because it is still in Alpha. I placed top priority in ensuring that the basic features are fully coded and fixed. I apologise for the lack of features. I will regularly update ETManager during my free time.
Download Links (I will add more download links if needed, you can just request for it either through the comment section or through private message):
ETManager Version 126.96.36.199 Alpha: Mega
Tested on: Windows 7 Professional
MD5 Hash (Installer): 2E62EB35B8A3EFDD79CA30C02947E18A
SHA-1 Hash (Installer): 783940B7EC78A5EC1423A1BB1AEC2431CE47D00D
SHA256 Hash (Installer): D5668DE0348675DEC5482057D307FB8A16286DA690B51FFEA08C6499D5AB96EF
VirusTotal Results (Installer): Scan Report
You might have noticed that VirusTotal scan showed that as of 22 March 2015, the detection ratio is 1/57. Only Zillya detect it as Tool.InjDll.Win32.142. I am not sure why this occur but as you can see from the rest of the scan report by 56 other antivirus softwares, ETManager is clean of virus. The only reason why I can think of it detecting ETManager is likely due to ETManager being a new tool and only a few users used it so they do not have much data on ETManager.
If you want to compare hashes, you can download a free program call HashTab by Implbits. Install it and then right click on ETManager Installer and under Properties, click "File Hashes" and you can check and compare the installer's hashes with the one I have posted above. If they match means you have downloaded the correct ETManager Installer. If it doesn't, it is most likely not my tool.
You can download HashTab by Implbits here: Download HashTab
Note: The hashes might change in the future with new builds of ETManager's Installer following new updates of ETManager. I will try to update the download links, hashes and VirusTotal Results as much as I can depending on my free time. Thank you.
Version 188.8.131.52 Alpha (22 March 2015)
I apologise for not being able to provide any direct links as I do not actually own an actual website. My current development website is not updated and uses wordpress.com which is a free wordpress hosting website. As for why I did not use free webhosting, it is because they are susceptible to attacks, viruses, etc, in order not to let my users download infected files, I did not use them and instead uses trusted file hosting websites as of now. When I have enough money, I may purchase a webhosting. Sorry for any inconvenience caused.
1) Download ETManager Installer Version 184.108.40.206 Alpha.exe from the download links above.
2) Launch ETManager Installer Version 220.127.116.11 Alpha.exe
3) Follow the install process.
4) You have successfully installed ETManager.
5) Please remember to right click on ETManager's desktop shortcut and go to Compatibility. Under Privilege Level, make sure the "Run this program as an administrator" checkbox is checked. This can help avoid some errors which you might experience.
Frequently Asked Questions (FAQ):
Question: Why am I not able to patch my ET or connect to an ET server?
Answer: This may be because you did not run ETManager as an administrator hence, ETManager may not have the administrative privileges or rights to patch your ET or run ET.exe. Please also ensure you entered the correct ET.exe Path and ET Directory Path. You can change this by going to the Main page of ETManager and then at the top left hand corner click "Menu" then "Options" followed by "General". Remember to click the save button after you finish making your changes. If it is a new ETManager Installation it is possible that for some reasons the Initial ETManager checks were not performed, please reset ETManager by clicking Menu which is located on the top left hand corner of ETManager's Main Page then click "Developers" followed by "Reset ETManager". Click yes when asked if you want to reset ETManager and the application will reset and restart. You should see the initial ETManager checks being performed for your new ETManager Installation.
Question: ETManager suddenly disappeared even though I installed it?
Answer: It may be because your antivirus has removed it by mistake. I can assure you that I have no malicious intent and have not included or code any files that might harm your computer in the form of a virus though I do not provide any warranty for the use of ETManager. I personally use Norton Internet Security, it did not detect ETManager as a virus though there was once while I was testing it did remove ETManager due to it being high risk caused by the lack of data on ETManager since it is a new tool and only a few users used it. Please whitelist ETManager if you face this problem and the issue should be resolved. You can view VirusTotal Report on ETManager Version 18.104.22.168 Alpha here: Scan Report.
Question: Why does my ETManager shows unregistered version. Does that mean I have to pay for it?
Answer: No, you don't have to pay for it. ETManager is a free program created by me. The registration feature is so that in the future it will be easier for me to allow certain users such as beta testers to test ETManager by giving them access to beta features not yet ready for the public. Anyone can sign up as a beta tester though it takes time for me to review the requests and send out product keys for beta testers to activate. As you might have notice, the registration feature is not finished yet. The details on How to Register will be released in the future. Currently, I am working on other features which I have planned, if you have any questions regarding it you can leave a comment in the comment section or send me a private message.
I will post more images when I have the time. In the meantime, you can refer to my previous entry: Test Development for images. Sorry for any inconvenience caused.
You might see empty spaces or boxes and default icons in ETManager, this is because I do not have time and do not have the expertise to design icons and banners which is where the empty spaces or boxes are suppose to be. It would be great if someone can help me design icons and banners, you can even design them for Fearless Assassins, for example Fearless Assassins banners for the main page of ETManager. I am open to it as well since I think Fearless Assassin Servers are fun though it would be great if it is just a general banner and icon for ETManager. Credits will be properly given on the credits page of ETManager and on the Full Credits List. You can choose to contribute if you want, it is optional.
If you do contribute regardless of how small the contribution is or what the contribution is (eg. designing, reporting bugs, suggesting features, or just saying Thank you or words of encouragement), I would like to express my gratitude to you. Thank you, it means a lot and helps increase my motivation.
You can go to ETManager's Credits Page under Menu > Help > About > Credits to view the Credits. If I have missed anyone in the Credits List I apologise. Please notify me under the comments section or private message me.
For updates on ETManager, you can follow me on Twitter: @blackknight8653 or click the follow button at the top right hand corner of this entry to follow this entry. I may choose to update this entry with newer version of ETManager or create a new entry. Thank you.
Last but not least, I hope you enjoy ETManager. Thank you for your support. Appreciate it. I am finally able to take a short break and play Wolfenstein: Enemy Territory on Fearless Assassins Silent Servers and Jaymod Servers after not playing for many days due to most of my free time being spent on developing ETManager Version 22.214.171.124 Alpha. Hope to see you all on Fearless Assassins Servers. Please do not be afraid to say Hello to me if you see me.
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Tonight I had to say goodbye to a loyal friend and guardian to my family. Hero passed away @ 11:55 pm on Tuesday, March Third in my arms.
Those we love don't go away,
They walk beside us every day.
RIP You Gentle Giant, Enjoy that big, open field buddy
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Hey guys, I'll be going to California for 3 weeks due to Army Reserve training. I'll be leaving this Feb. 21st and won't be back till the 13th of March. Didn't know where to put this and I just wanted to let any admin or anybody know that'll I'll be away during this time period.