So I got denied. I had a feeling that post i made the other night would cause that to happen. It's not what I wanted but let the chips fall.
F|A, like other gaming clans is just that; a group of people - friends - that all play online games together and enjoy playing those games with each other and the people who come to play regularly on their favorite servers. But it's really just an online existence. Being a member is not going to make you rich or poor. It's not going to help you get a better job. It's really not going to change your life in the real world anymore, other than to add some distinction to your online gaming personality.
I know I should have been more patient but like I said - 4 years as a regular. 3 applications. Seeing people with much less time playing here and less time as an applicant get approved, well it hurt my feelings a bit. It was like a slap in the face. Part of me thinks that if I was wanted as a member, I would have been approved. Maybe that last post just gave the people who make the decisions an excuse to deny me.
Regardless, there was some good out of the experience. As an applicant I made more friendships with people I had seen playing but never got to know. I became active on the forums - and I'm a forum posting guy on many forums. I hopefully helped people with problems and I learned to pay more attention to the servers AND to explore other F!A servers. It's a good experience.
I have been asked not to leave now and I have no plan to. I like it here. I truly made my apply from my heart, not just for the hell of it.
It's just sad that many of the people that make the decisions don't or rarely even play the games.
Maybe one day, when I am wanted as a member, I'll get an actual invite to join, not just apply.