Well, I'm not that kind of guy complaining about his personal situation... But I just want to share a thought I have now with you all. Sometimes, you have to write, to communicate what you feel.
I'm a student, one year left... and I feel a bit sad about that. I mean, I wasn't a big fan of school, but this is the place where you meet boys and girls, same age, same passions (unfortunately it never happened to me), you discover friendship, love, and so many things, bad or good. I lived in different places during my childhood, I'll probably never see guys I liked and girls I loved again, even with social media, because they are 800 kilometers away, they have new friends, and boyfriends or girlfriends. The girl I loved the most in my short life has a boyfriend now, and I see them kissing etc. It hurts. I'm from the past for them. But you met them, you had many good moments with them, you have amazing memories with them... That's how life works. And I think it is very important to remember what you felt when you were a child. It helps to grow, to my point of view.
But now, I'm 22. Childhood is over. School too. I'm afraid I'll not see young people like me in my future job. I've never had a "real" girlfriend. I'm not unattractive, but as I said I lived in different places. You made friends, and you go in another place. Once, twice, thrice... You have to rebuilt your friendship again. You try to flirt but you fail. Once, twice, thrice... You lose your confidence. You try to keep the faith but you see it doesn't work with girls. You don't feel love. You wonder why, and you understand you're the problem. I'm not an extrovert guy, nor shy. It's just, I don't like to go out on saturday evening, I'm not that kind of very sensitive or tactile (?) boy, and that's hard for me to make friends. I am what I am. I can talk with whoever in university or somewhere else, it's just I need time to know someone better, and generally I don't have this time. Or I don't ask to have more (like "Let's drink together tonight").
Now I feel lonely. But that's my fault.
I just want someone with me now. A cousin, a friend, or simply a girlfriend. Wanna hug a girl, simply as that, to feel better. I'm single and I feel happy, but sometimes you know, you need someone with you. That's what it is happening to me right now. So, if you have a girlfriend, or a boyfriend, please hug her/him for me, and remember, even if you get angry against her/him, or whatever, you are loved, and you give love. This is the best feeling ever for an human being. Nothing is worst than feeling lonely (except illness for sure). I'll not say you're lucky, but some people like myself are sad and try desperately to find his/her SO, without knowing how, and if we'll succeed. Please kiss your SO and tell him/her you love him/her.
It was good to write this, I can study peacefully before my exams.
PS; Thanks Jere for your posts in Trance thread, it made my post easier to write.